He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

sorry

Zayn's POV

"Lou we have to stop this its hurting him" I say crying.

"Zayn we have to keep doing this unless you want him to die" Lou says seriously.

LOUIS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!! I scream.

"You wouldn't understand" LOU says crying.

"I DO FUCKING UNDERSTAND LOUIS, I UNDERSTAND OUR BESTFRIENDS ARE DYING AND YOU ARE BEING A SELF-CENTERED FUCK AND YOU KNOW WHAT WE ARE DONE DO YOU GET THAT WE ARE OVER JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!".

I SEE LOUIS RUN OUT OF THE ROOM CRYING, AND I SEE NIALL SQUIRMING IN THE BED.

Niallers POV 

I CANT BELIEVE I DID THAT TO HIM I BROKE THEM UP I AM JUST A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT.

I ruined my best friends relationship I dont deserve him why couldn't they have just left me and let me die.

"Nialler are you awake" Zayn says crying " I need you".

"Zaynie" I say horsely and breathing deeply because my lungs are hurting.

" Yah Ni" he responds.

" I am sorry" I say trying to hold back the tears.

" For what " he says.

" For being such a waste" I say.

" You're not a waste hun" he says.

" Can I see my phone plz?" I choke out.

He hands its to me and I show it to him all the pictures of the hateful posters I see at concerts.

"Niall this stuff isn't true and you know that" he says hugging me tight.

"Z can you give me sometime alone plz".

"Yah Ni but you have to promise me that you will not do anything stupid" he says.

All that escapes my mouth is "yeah".

He leaves the room.

I log on to twitter and check my what people are tweeting. I see one tweet that says:

@niallhoranofficial

@fagsmustdie why didnt you cut deeper maybe next time you will leave this world forever you fag. I hope you burn in hell you faggot.

I pull my case off my phone and see they didn't take my razor from it. I need to do this... I need to be going I don't deserve zayn and friends like him... I don't deserve love.

I write my fans one last letter through twitter.

@ niallhoranoffical

To all my amazing fans you gave me the best life ever and I love all of you but this life just isn't something I can take. @realiampayne I will miss you and you are the best friend I could ever ask for. @zaynmalik I love you more than I should and I think thats what put me over the edge plz dont hate me I know you said dont do anything stupid but I cant go on. @louistomlinson I am sorry I ruined everything for you and zayn but now that I am out of the way you can have him all to yourself and that he deserves you more than I ever did. @harrystyles I hope you pull through this and your secret will be safe with me and its best to just move on so you dont have to go through what I did. Goodbye guys.

I hit the tweet button and I run the thin metal blade across my cold pale skin. I see the viscous blood flows out of my freezing body. Then my entire world world went black. All of the memories flashed before me the day I got into XFactor, the day I didn't make it as a solo artist and the day we were put together. All the happy memories.