He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

the truth

Harry's pov

I can't believe we just did this.. why did i let niall do that he said he loves zayn he said he didn't feel the same about me. but what he did confuses me.. why would he do this.. now i am so confused does he feel the same or was it all to make me feel guilty i am scared to ask him.. what should i say to him.. should i even talk to him.. he used me but it felt so good... i felt so good. i felt loved.. more loved than louis ever made me feel... should i tell niall i love him or should i keep it to myself. i do love louis with my heart but my feelings for niall are stronger than the feeling i have for lou.

"niall......" i say nervously

" harry i have to go" he says walking out of the room

" okay niall" i say with a single tear in my eye" we need to talk later" i say holding back sobs

" okay hazza later" he says

when he walks out of the room i break into tears. my heart is crushed yet again.. he is the second person that has broken my heart.. but i let myself get broken... its my fault its always my fault. i always screw everything up, and i always get my heart broken. i need louis or demi... i need them to hug me and hold me...

i pull out my phone and text louis " can we talk"

then i text demi " i really screwed up this time"

lou answers back " i am on my way"

"haz i know what happened" demi texts me " niall told me, you should tell louis.. harry we all know you love him.. you may love niall but not in the same way"

"demi i don't know how i feel about the two of them" i say crying

" harry we know how you look at louis and it is not the same way you look at niall, you have love towards louis and lust towards niall"

" okay demi" i say " i'll tell louis"

i think out loud

"how am i going to tell lou what happened"

" how are you going to tell me what haz?"

"shit" i say under my breath

i text demi again " how should i break it to him... i am scared"

" hold him tight and tell him you are sorry harry tell him how you feel and tell him that what happened with niall was just because you screwed up with him and that you thought you lost him"

" okay demi but if this blows up in my face i will text you so you can help me run away again :)"

" harry stop it he won't leave you"

"SO hazza what did you need to tell me"

" umm... i... uh kinda....uh did ...um something stupid....

" what did you do" he says looking disappointed

i pull lou into a really big hug and kiss his cheek softly " please don't get mad at me" i say crying

" i promise haz.. after what has happened i will never leave you

"ikindascrewedaroundwithniallandwedidsomestuffbutlouiamsosososorry"

" what" he says

" i kinda screwed around with niall and we did some stuff but lou i am so so so sorry" i say sobbing

" haz...." lou says frowning