He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

drunk

Niall's P.O.V

fuck it i don't know what to do i am sooo scared i love my zany but i do have feelings for harry. he means so much to me!! i call demi

" hey demi can you come here i need to talk to you" i say crying " i am so confused i really need your help "

" sure nialler i will be right there" she says

come on demi what is taking your ass so fucking long god you are soooo slow come on come on come on demi i am going to be old as fuck by the time you get here god damn demi stop taking forever.. i am going to wither away into....

" niall i am here" demi call through the door

" finallllyyyy what toooook you so lonnnnggg" i say sluring my words

( dont judge me i enjoy getting drunk in the middle of the day i am irish for god sakes lol its completely normal)

" niall are you drunk" she says

" yahhhh i am " i say giggling

" why nialler"

" because i don't know what to doooo.... lol demi i screwed everything up"

" niall don't say that please stop you didn't screw up anything" demi says

" dem i screwed upppp.... i don't deserve zayn"

i do something i promised i wouldn't do i pull out my razor and i try to hide it from demi but she noticed

" niall put that down now i swear to god don't do anything stupid!!!"

" no demi i deserve the pain i screwed it all up!!! "

" just stop it please for me" she goes to grab for the razor and i slide it across my wrist before she grabs it she looks disappointed in me and she says " niall why would you do that"

she runs to the kitchen and grabs a towel to wrap up the cut but she leaves the blade on the table i pick it up and i slash my wrists as quickly as i can i feel the pain and it feels so good

she comes back into the room and she sees what i have done

" niall please stop this... please you don't deserve the pain you are amazing"

"no demi you are amazing " i lean in and i touch our lips together i don't feel the sparks but i need to forget i need her to forget so i can finally be gone

she moans " nn...iiiaall"

i deepen the kiss and the pain goes away but i feel my body going weak and i say it

" goodbye dani"