He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

why does no one ever notice my scars

Louis' pov

this really pisses me off liam comes in with his shirt ripped and i ask him whats wrong and he flips out on me like really what did i do wrong... fuck.... i am about to leave. i feel like getting away

" he li i am going to go for a walk ill be back soon" i say as i walk out the door

he replies " lou don't get lost like last time we don't need to go on twitter and have our fans find you do we" he says with a smile trying to lighten the mood

" no li" i say with a frown

i leave the hospital and start walking down the street.. i start thinking... why doesn't anyone ever notice me hurting... no one ever does.... no one sees the scars because they are hidden.. they are somewhere no one will ever see....

but what if i need someone to see it... i pull out the razor i keep in my wallet. i slide the cold metallic blade across my equally cold and sensitive skin, it feels so good... its refreshing. i can feel my adrenaline pumping hopefully someone sees. i stop the bleeding and i semi cover the fresh cut.

i walk back to the hospital and go visit nialler because they have the curtain up. he is awake now.

i say "nialler are you okay sweetie"

he replies nervously "n...no"

" you can tell me anything sweetie" i say smiling

" plz don't get mad at me" he says on the verge of tears

"i won't hun"

" harry said he loves me" he says my heart drops "he sent it in the note he wrote to me"

" niall i don't believe you" i say

" check my phone" i point to the counter and my heart dropped i see zayns phone but not mine " shit"

"ni whats wrong "

" zayn has my phone and probably already saw the text" he says crying

" niall ill go find him" i say as i hug him basically putting the cut in his face

i go to walk away

" and lou we will be talking about that little thing on your arm when we get back, plz don't do that its not worth your time"

i try to say under my breath " niall i have been doing longer than all of you"

" lou get over here right now fuck my phone i heard what you said" he says crying even more " where are your cuts cus we change together all the time and i never ever see them so tell me where they are"

" niall i can't" i say as i walk into the hall and go to the bathroom to make the pain go away