He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

the kiss

Niall's P.O.V

how am i going to do this its going to be so difficult. what will i do with all this hate. they are going to ask me how i figured out how i was gay. i have to talk to someone about it. i could talk to liam or harry or louis or even larry... lol i can't believe they are finally together. i just wish me and zayn were together. what harry said that day is still on my mind.

" niall are you okay you've been in the the shower for almost two hours" liam shouts up the stairs.

"yah li just thinking about stuff" i say

" ok ni if you need to talk you can come to me you know that" he says

" i know li-li can we talk before the interview. i say

" niall we have to go the interview is in twenty minutes" liam says

" ill be out in 5 minutes" i say

" ok niall" he says

i run out of the bathroom and bump into zayn he blushes and rushes past me i run to my room and change and meet the boys down stairs.

larry and liam both say at the same time " good luck niall we will always be here for you we love you"

i look at zayn and he just looks away.

i say " thanks guys now lets get going"

we all run to the suv and jump in paul is driving with liam in the front zayn and harry in the middle and me and louis in the back.

i see zayn whispering to harry

i whisper to lou " whats going on between them"

he whispers " i dont know ni they have been close ever since the hospital they are inseperable"

i say " oh well can you find out from hazza"

" i dont know niall " lou says

" he hurt me louis alot he ruined me he broke my heart and ripped me into pieces and to think he ever felt something towards me when he use to flirt with me and he left me hanging he left me to die he killed me. he killed me twice and he didnt even feel bad about it" i say crying.

everyone looks at me and i say " what the fuck are you looking at you shower of cunts"!!!

they all look away. i mumble " exactly look away"

we pull up to the place the interview is going to happen

i get out of the van and say " i guess its time to ruin my life. time for all the hate"

louis and harry put theirs arms around me and say " you ready for this niall"

i say " i guess"

zayn comes up behind me and says " everything's gonna be all right ni"

" is that you have to say to me" i growl at him

" i guess so" zayn says

" well fuck you to" i scream and run into the building

Liam's P.O.V

" Well fuck you to" niall screams and runs into the building

larry runs after niall and paul pushes me and zayn into the building

i pull zayn into the backroom and i scream " what the fuck is wrong with you what did you say to niall to make him cry. zayn he loves you why cant you see that you are his everythin...

then out of nowhere zayn kisses me i feel his soft slim lips on mine but there is no fireworks. i deepen the kiss and he keeps kissing me he bites my lip starts sucking on my tongue which makes me moan " zayyynn.."

all of a sudden the door opens and i hear it slam again and then i hear a loud slam against the wall and the crying of a certain cute little irishman.

i pull away and open the door and see niall crying. " niall its not what it looked... " i try to pull him into a tight hug to try to explain what happened but he pushes me away and slaps me across the face

" fuck you liam you know how i feel about him" he says sobbing as he runs away and i am to shocked to move to chase after him

louis and harry run up to me and asked what happened

i tell them and they slap me across the face and say " what were you thinking"

i say " it wasnt me it was zayn he kissed me and can everyone stop slapping my face"

" we have to find niall" harry says

" ok split up louis go upstairs harry go in the middle and ill check the lower floors ok

Louis' P.O.V

why did they have to do that now i have to find him. i run upstairs and i see red all over the stair rails i go up to the roof and i see the one thing i never want to see. our little leprechaun crying on the edge of the building with the deep rosey red blood pouring out of his sliced up wrist.

i text paul to get all the people away from the building and for liam to get zayn and harry and to get to the roof. the all say ok. i see the people leaving. i call to niall and tell him to come here he does and he cries in my arms until he sees zayn and gets up and runs to the egde of the building and he jumps i go to grab him and pull him back onto the roof. liam sees a note on the roof and hands it to me. its a suicide note from niall

dear boys

I am sorry i ever existed i am sorry i am such a waste i dont deserve anyones love i guess the interview will never happen because i cant take the pain. liam i thought you were my brother. my real brother not some loser friend that steals the guy i love well fuck you i hate you. we are no longer friends. louie and hazza i am sorry i know you were both here for me but this is just way to much for me to handle. zayn i love you. i am sorry i love you. you have no idea how much i dont want to love you but you cant help who you fall in love with. this is it boys i have chosen the easy way out.

love nialler

P.S

lou and haz i hope everything works out and you two are both happy!!! i love you two bye

i didnt expect our little nialler to be in that much pain. what are we going to do for him we need to know if zayn feels the same

i finally updated!!!!!!!! i have been having trouble with ideas sorry guys