He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

The dream and the realization

Niall POV

our bodies are intertwined as we cuddle.. the kisses became more frequent.. i feel zayn moving his hand down my body and towards my boxers he slips his hand in an starts stroking me

" god zayn that feels good"

he kisses me one the lips then he plants chaste kisses down my neck and on his way down he plays with my nipples it makes me moan " zaaayyn"

he pulls my pants off and takes my full length in my mouth and he starts sucking my dick like the greek god he is he gets faster and faster and then he swallows me completely and a surge of ecstasy runs through my body and then i cum in his mouth and scream " ZAYN"

"Nialler are you ok?" I heard someone say.

I ignore them and I fall back asleep but before I even think about dreaming I get shaken awake.

"What the fuck do you want?" I say.

I see that its Louis.

"Nialler, why were you dreaming about Zayn?" He asks looking like a sad puppy.

"I....I..... Might fancy him" I squeak out.

All Louis says is "oh".

Then he leaves the room and I hear sobbing.

Great job idiot now he is crying, wait why the fuck is he crying!!!

Shit I gotta go see whats wrong with him.

I tip toe down the stairs and my heart drops when I see Louis and Zayn snogging on the couch.

they are practically eating their faces off . they are so into the kiss they look as if they are in lust not in love. a pang of hurt and sadness and helplessness surges through my body and i start to cry quietly

I run upstairs and slam the door shut.

I dig through my draws and find a shiny blade i find it and then all of the urges come back and the its like the blade is mocking me and it is laughing at me.

Making sure my door is locked, I drag the blade across my chest letting the ruby red blood stream from the jagged cuts the razor left on my powder white skin.

"Nialler, whats wrong?" I hear from the door. " Why is the door locked?"

I think of a lie. "Didn't want anyone walking in on me while I am in the shower, sorry bout that Lili."

I sob a little.

"Nialler are you crying? You know you can tell me anything."

"No I am fine liam."

"Ok well just remember I am here for you."

Liams POV

Whats wrong with Nialler?i mean he does cry but he will usually let me into the room I have to find out.

I remember that you can get into Niallers room from his window.

I run outside and I pull myself up to his window but I stop because what I see shocks me.

Nialler is sitting on his bed with a blood covered razor in his shaking hand hand and blood all over the place it breaks my heart to see the cheerful little boy looking sad and hopeless i need to help him

I pull myself up the rest of the way but I fall startling him and he hides the cut.

"Nialler, why did you do that?"

"Because I am in love with Zayn but he loves Louis." He says sobbing.

I put my arm around him and I put pressure on the cut with his shirt he winces in pain starts crying just from the pain from the cut.

I ask, " How do you know/"

"I saw them snogging on the couch this morning." He says sobbing louder.

I hear a knock at the door.

"Nialler? Are you ok? Its Zayn."

I whisper to him repeat what I say.

"Zayn leave me alone I dont want to talk to you."

Sure enough he repeats it.

"But Nialler, I am worried about you, I care about you," Zayn says.

"If you cared about me you wouldn't be down there snogging Louis like you are about to fuck him.. god are you a fucking slut like really." The words slip out of his mouth.

"Ni? Let me in Now."

"No Zayn get the fuck away," he screams.

I hear the door getting broken down and I run to the bathroom.

"Nialler what did you do" I hear Zayn say, somewhat muffled damn door.

"Get out Zayn I think you have caused enough pain," he says crying.

"Whatever!" Zayn says walking out. "Btw Niall, tell Liam and Harry we are having a meeting in 15 minutes. Me and Lou have something important to tell you."

So what do you think so far i thought it was kinda boring but idk plz comment

Next chapter is the meeting what do you think its about any guesses leave as a comment