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CHAPTER 58

May's POV (Elena)

"Elena..."

Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay si Luke ang nakasalubong ko. My heart rate soared dramatically. It pains my heart to see him in this condition. He moved to take my hand in his pero agad akong umiwas. This is it... I'm going to cut off our ties starting now. I still can't make myself believe what Miss Elena told me... She is me and I am her? I saw pain plastered in Luke's eyes but this is the only thing I could do para hindi pa lalong masaktan si Luke.

"It's May, Mr. Javier," I formally corrected him. "Nas a loob si Miss Elena."

I smiled at him before turning away. It doesn't matter if I believe it or not, all that counts today is that I am May Gonzales in physical. I'm going to live in the present, and Luke isn't going to be there.

"Don't do this please," he pleaded.

I let out a sigh and faced him. Oh, God, I love this man so much but I know that love alone will not get us there. God knows how desperately I want to kiss those lips and tightly embrace him, but our love will only cause him agony; he does not deserve to suffer solely for my sake. When tears fell into his eyes, every passerby turned to gaze at us.

"Luke..."

Para akong sinasaksak nakikitang nagkakaganito siya, I hurriedly pulled him to the parking lot for privacy. I tightly closed my eyes and breathe out deeply as I let go of our grip.

"You promised Elena that you would love her no matter what, right?" I asked, not bothering to face him.

"Yes I did, nangako ako sa'yo," he uttered as he pulled me to face him.

My tears poured running down my cheeks. Please do give me the courage to stay true to my decision. I truly want this man to be happy. He has made me happier than I ever could imagine. He doesn't deserve to be in pain just because of me. And if he stays with me, all I'll leave behind are scars.

"But I am not Elena now, I am May Gonzales," I reconned, my voice breaking along with my heart. "Let's forget everything, Luke. Just think of it as a crazy dream because I would."

"I can't. Ganoon ba ako kadali iwan Elena? Are you really going to give up on us? I told you I love you and it doesn't matter if you're May Gonzales now. I love you and that's all that matters. I don't care what people think or say, I love you and I want to be with you," he held my hand tightly as he showered me with soft kisses.

"You have to. And Elena won't be leaving you kasi andoon lang sya sa loob.. waiting for you," I lightly pushed him away. "You said mahal mo si Elena kahit naman siguro tulad ng sinabi mo ay iba siya sa Elena na nakilala mo ay matututunan mo pa ring mahalin siya, after all she is still Elena. Just think of it that she had amnesia tulad ng pinaniniwalaan ko. Forget me, forget the Elena at the past. Mas importante ang ngayon."

Please let me go. I don't know how long I can keep this mask. He clutched my hand as tears streamed down his cheeks. Please do not cry. You're only making things more difficult for me, Luke. I wiped away my tears and looked up to keep them from falling.

"Wouldn't you regret it? Because I will. I will regret not fighting for this, for us. Our feelings are mutual but-"

"Maybe I will, maybe I won't," pagputol ko sa kanya. I caressed his cheeks and wiped away his tears. "But if we were truly meant to be, we should let fate do its work. For the time being, let's stop it, it's time to let go, Luke. Let's not complicate things any further than they already are. This is the final goodbye. I hope you would be happy with the Elena today, I'm sure she'd make you happy, and she'd be far superior to the Elena you formerly knew."

"I can't. I won't. I wouldn't," he broke into tears. "We can do this together. We just have to figh-"

"Time, Luke. Allow time to heal your wounds," I pulled my hand away from his grip and bitterly smiled at him. "Love isn't always there when you want it. It's not always going to be convenient or practical."

"But when you find it... you have to fight for it, because if you don't... you risk losing everything," he reasoned. His desperate pleas make my chest ache so much that it feels unbearable. "I will fight Elena, and I will win this fight," he claimed.

"No Luke, I've learned that kahit maglupasay ka pa diyan sa daan if we are really not meant for each other there is nothing we can do. May mga labang kahit anong gawin mo ay simula palang talo ka na."

"I don't care I just want you. There's no one else for me but you," he stubbornly answered.

"Set me free Luke, let's formally end this all and live our new lives. You said you wished for my happiness and this would make me happy. If you truly love me, please listen to my request," I said softly. Napaawang na lamang ang bibig niya sa mga huli kong kataga. I am sorry for using your weakness on you, Luke. 'Are you going back on your words now? Do you really love me or do you just love the idea of being in love with Elena Perez?"

"You are really so unfair, Elena," he whispered. "Do not ever doubt my love for you. I love you... more than anything in this world."

Do you know how many times I'd chant to myself that I'm strong, hoping that somehow that would come true? I'm sorry. I truly wish you would be happy with her and claim the happiness you truly deserve. You cannot find that happiness with me. Not now that I only have little time to live. I love you Luke and this is goodbye. Yumuko lang siya and covered his face with his hands as he wept.

I let out an exasperated sigh and turned my back again to him for the last time. This time, I could only hear his faint sobs... he didn't try to stop me anymore. This is really the end. I weakly walked away, not knowing which way to go.

"May," I raised my head and saw Yummie worriedly looking at me.

I can't help but run towards her. Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit and tried to hush me. I have never been thankful that a warm embrace could somehow ease this excruciating pain that is devouring my soul.

"May ginawa ba sila sayo May?" she worriedly asked.

"Yum, it hurts," I sobbed, unable to find the right words. "It hurts so much."

Why did this have to happen? If what Elena's saying is real then why this did happen? Why do I have to feel this pain? Am I really not allowed to be happy? Is this God's way of saying that I do not deserve Luke? Is this my punishment for rebelling against grandma?

"It's okay May, everything is going to be alright. Andito lang ako," Yummie consoled as she patted my back.

My body went numb, and my vision became blurry. Natataranta kong kinuha ang painkillers sa bag ko but the pain was already unbearable. Napasigaw ako sa sakit ng ulo ko.

"Tulong! tulong Tulungan nyo kami dito!"

Before darkness consumed me, a distant memory flashed in my mind.

She grumbled and looked up at me with the most lifeless eyes I'd ever seen. "If you badly want to meet your pathetic mother then go ahead be born to a different family! As long as you are a Perez, you have to follow my orders. That is your duty as a Perez."