Crossover | ✓

CHAPTER 61

May's POV (Elena)

She remained silent and shock was painted all over her face. I took the opportunity to speak. "Now, do you understand Natividad? Seeing you cause me unwelcome agony, my condition is already a pain. Knowing your personality, I was being considerate because you had been nice to me after all—"

"Hindi! Nagkakamali ka May. Nakilala ni Dad si Mamita sa America," she tried to pull my hand but I back away. "Hindi totoo ang sinasabi mo at isa pa hindi magsisinungaling sa amin si Mamita, hindi magagawa ni Dad na manira ng pamilya ng iba."

I let out a deep sigh. You are too naive for this cruel world Yummie... you see kindness in every people, you don't doubt anything you see, you genuinely believe in every people, you believe that as long as you are honest everyone will be the same but you are wrong Yummie. Not everything you believe is real, not everything the people show you are real, not all truth is beautiful.

"You might not be conscious of it Yummie but that doesn't change the fact that while you are living comfortably and happily with a complete family...with my mother," this time my voice broke but I managed to control my tears from falling. When have I become this weak? "We lived our lives miserably. I spent my entire life yearning for the mother you stole from me."

I'm sorry Yummie. I know... I know 'di mo kasalanan, na wala ka ring alam sa lahat ng ito but seeing you, seeing that the mother I've been waiting and longing for a long time is with you. I can't help but think that the promise she made to me... she forgot everything about it because of you. We have long been forgotten since you are her new daughter.

"M-May," malumanay niyang tawag sa akin. "Sigurado along may raso—"

"Because of you, I lost my mother, Winter and Misty lost their mother!"

"May naman eh," she cried, her hands shaking.

"I am not May, Natividad. Do you know how hard it was knowing the whole truth?" I asked. "Knowing that I am Elena after all and all these feelings, these memories... it's all true. You lived the life I have always desired. You took my place, you are her new family. The pain you are feeling right now doesn't compare to the pain I am feeling right now."

"I'm sorry May, patawarin mo ako," I just stared at her as she sat on the ground sobbing.

"I had to borrow a dying woman's body just to meet my mother who turns out is already happy with her new family," I added.

"Hindi ko alam. Hayaan mo akong—" No words came out when she raised her head and our eyes locked.

I know inside my head that none of this is her fault, she is just a victim of circumstances too but my heart states otherwise. Seeing her is a mixture of sadness, jealousy, and happiness. She was able to make my mother happy and that's all I ever wanted. She was the kindest to me when I didn't know the truth. She is just someone you can't hate but I need to hurt her for her to step away from me.

I wonder what kind of emotion am I showing right now, I don't know. Right now, I can't feel anything. I just want this all to end. I wonder if seeing you hurt will also pain her. I want to despise Mom so much but I hate myself for not being able to do so. I just love her so much, I love you so much Mom that I can't even make myself completely hate you or the girl you raised as your own child in exchange for abandoning your real daughters and family.

I turned my back but Yummie held my wrist. "Ayokong kamuhian mo ako o si Mamita, sigurado akong may rason si Mamita. Bigyan mo siya ng pagkakataon, hayaan mo siyang mag-paliwanag. Ayokong dito matapos 'to."

I blankly looked at her. I can see she is desperately trying to read me. I don't hate you, I just said I did but the truth is, my heart is too numb to feel even hatred. My world has completely shattered when I learned about the truth. There is no meaning of anything anymore. The promise that I held so tight, the hope, everything is over. I pulled my wrist and walked away.