I'll never forgot you

I want to be excepted

A/N important authors note at the end about Mikey and his new girlfriend.
Ari

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I mumbled thrusting around and kicking my legs.

"Ari, Ari wake up."

I bolted up from the bed quickly and began taking deep breathes. I looked next to me and saw Ashton staring at me shocked.

"I'm sorry," I said quickly. "I didn't mean to scare you, it was just a nightmare."

Ashton moved close to me moving my hair from my neck and placing soft kisses on my neck, "don't apologise for having bad dreams. What was it about?"

"Jessie." I mumbled and his kisses froze before starting again.

"Don't think about her, not now." He mumbled.

I nodded before turning around pecking his lips and then getting up.

"Where are you going?" He asked moving close to me.

"To shower and then go cinema with Cassie." I laughed grabbing a towel.

He pouted and moaned, "can't you just stay here with me baby?"

"No, I promised her ash. I'm sorry, I love you." I blew a kiss before disappearing.

//

"Ayyyyy!" Cassie yelled running to me. "I have so much to tell you!"

I laughed and hugged her, "about you and Luke I assume?"

"You assume correctly. Me and Luke are officially a couple. Well, me and him know and the boys and now you!"

"Wow!" I exclaimed shocked.

She looked up, "what?"

"It's just, I didn't expect him to move on so quick from Mandy." I rubbed my arm.

She rolled her eyes, "Mandy's gone now. She's re-married and it's now time Luke moved on to. I'm just happy he's moving on with me."

"So," I smiled winking. "Have you done the deal? You know?"

She giggled, "oh yes, plenty of times." She blushed. "How about you and ash!? What's with that!?"

"Well, we started dating a few days ago. I feel terrible but the way Jessie has reacted is shocking."

"Why didn't you talk to me about it?" She pouted.

I shrugged, "I didn't know what to expect from it, I still don't. I'll never forget he cheated but I have to live with the fact I'm a cheat too you know? So I guess it just means I need to get over it all."

"Have you ever, you know, talked properly about it?"

I nodded, "I guess so. I mean, it was always a topic before we started dating again."

"I know you've done the deal, it's written all over your face."

I looked at her and then smirked, "of course we have!" I giggled.

//

I was walking home without cass because she was meeting Luke at dominos. I walked to the bus stop and waited.

"Ohmygod! It's her!"

I looked up and saw a bunch of girls smiling and giggling.

"It's the cheat!"

"What a whore!"

"Fucking slut!"

"Fat cow!"

I felt my eyes begin to water as they laughed and pointed. I attempted to leave when I was pushed backwards. I let out a soft whimper as I rubbed the back of my head.

"Get away from her!"

I looked up and saw cameras flashing as Luke grabbed my arm and pulled me up. He pushed me out the crowd and I saw Cassie trailing behind glaring at everyone. We got into his car and I took a deep breath.

"What happened!?" Luke yelled turning around to look at me.

I shrugged, "all I wanted to do was wait for the bus." I cried.

"You should have called Ashton." Cassie said sympathetically.

"I shouldn't have to call him any time I need a pick up from town! I should be able to get around myself without feeling like trash and being treated like it to. I want to be independent like I was before all this." I snapped.

Luke huffed his eyes darkening. "Then you should have kept your legs shut until after Ashton broke Jessie's heart."

I gasped shocked that he'd say something like that. I thought Cassie was going to stick up for me but she didn't say a word. She sat there her hand rested on Luke's thigh as he turned away from the curb and drove us home.

//

"I got a call from Michael saying your pictures are all over papers and a video was shared of you being hurt." Ashton ran in as I sat on the sofa still shocked from everything.

Luke and Cassie went to there room and left me. They said nothing else to me since we left town.

"What happened babe? Are you okay?" Ashton asked rubbing my shoulders.

I didn't want to answer. All the hard work I'd put in for myself getting better and improving my self esteem was shot down by a bunch of girls who knew nothing. They wanted Ashton, they wanted to be the one to kiss him and hug him but because it was me they wanted me dead.

If it was them then they'd be hated on and they wouldn't like it. Why can't they just except me? All I want to be is excepted, I'm not ruining the band and making them hate fans because it's only a handful who are nasty and they're not real.

"Ashton, I'm scared." I said looking at him, tears falling down my cheeks.

He frowned and hugged me, "what of baby?"

"I'm scared of them breaking us, they practically broke us before, I mean before we really broke. I don't want to grow to resent you. I want to love you whole heartedly."

"So do I, don't worry, I'll sort this all out." He whispered, anger clear in his expression.

"Don't be harsh, don't be cruel." I begged.

He pecked my cheek, "I'll do what I have to do. I want to make you happy."

"Just cuddle me," I whispered. "I'll always be happy then."

And for the whole night he did as I asked. He never let me go.

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Heyyyyyyy! Sorry it's short.

This chapter is sort of aimed at all the hate sent to Michael and his new girlfriend. Personally I love them together, I love whoever makes the boys happy and I don't think we have any right telling them there stupid or there girlfriends are fake. It's cruel to them and to there girlfriends.

I say in the book, if it were you you'd be happy wouldn't you? So why do some people think it's okay to be horrible to them?

If you love the guys then you'd want them happy no matter how they become it.

I'm a huge Ashton Irwin fan and I've seen every show I could possibly see them in in England. If someone else dated Ashton I would be happy because, A) I'm to young and B) I love him to much to be nasty to his girlfriend.

OKAYYYYYYYY, rant over. Sorry if it seems harsh it's just opinions. I hope you're all liking this book. T❤️