feelings: are a piece of shit||dairy

Gender, agian

1.2.2017

I lay awake at 1 am.
Pondering.
The usual stuff.
Jay.
Fan fiction.
Anime.
Sexuality.
Gender.
My mind stayed on the topic of gender for a while.
My gender to be specific.
I googled different genders.
Scrolling and scrolling and scrolling.
A word stuck out to me.
Non-binary.
Non-binary people may wish to transition so that their gender expression more closely reflects their internal identity. Many non-binary people wish to appear androgynous and adopt unisex names, gender-neutral titles such as Mx. and/or gender-neutral pronouns, but others prefer to express themselves in ways which are traditionally seen as masculine or feminine or to mix aspects of the two.
I thought about that word for a while.
Thinking weather I prefer this to demigirl.
The only reasons why I feel feminine is because of the fact I own a vagina.
And I feel forced to be a female because of my body type.
And I have just decided to drop all of that.
My body type does not define who I am.
So it only feels like a week ago I decided to state my gender.
Here I am doing it again.
I'm non-binary.
As far as pronouns go I'm staying with she/her just to keep it simple until I come out.
Now name wise.
People at school refer to me as Issy.
And it may seem weird but if you could please make the effort to call me Sam or Sammy.
This is to make me more comfortable.
So please make the effort.
I would really appreciate it.
Even just changing my name to Sammy on your phone.
If anyone asks it's a joke.

~Sammy.