Hellboy OC Insert

Broken heart

It was harder that anything to see him go, he waved one final time before he ducked into that horrible truck. He said that not even Johan was allowed to go with him, it was almost like a solo mission. I had Rose in my arms while I watched the truck leave, all the way down the road. I tried to stay connected with his mind until he was too far, leaving me feel empty. It hurt so much, it wasn't right to feel so empty, so alone. All I could do was stare at where he was standing, the last glimpse I had of him. I didn't look away until Rose started to fuss, her whine was almost like she missed him too. Bouncing her a little bit I turned, taking in one last look at the spot before heading into the house. Liz and Red had went into the house so that I could say goodbye, but I just wanted to be around them. Walking into the living room I saw that they were sitting on the couch, May and Bella were on Red's lap and Liz was making faces at them. When they saw me standing in the doorway Liz got up and rushed over to me, catching me as I fell forward onto my knees, clutching Rose close. I started to sob hard. How could anyone deal with this, the pain was almost crippling.

" He will come back, he promised. He swore that he will come back, it's okay. I believe him."

I said, my voice kept cracking as I bent over the beautiful baby girl he and I had made together. She was what will keep me going in the time to come. She was going to be my rock. For I was weak when he was not with me.

" You will be fine."

Red cut in, his voice was soft and kind. He understood the loss, but not as raw. It was so heavy and burned. But I was going to live. Because if anything happened to Abe, I would feel it. I would just know.

" I know Red. I know."

-time skip six months-

I was sitting on the couch watching Rose play with her cousins, she was small compared to them, only being half their size, but they were nice to her. She was speaking small words now, along with very wobbly walking. Her hair went down to her butt, it was a silvery white, but her eyes were the brightest blue I had ever seen. She was a happy baby, making life a little bitter sweet because of how he was here to see her grow up. She was so much like her father, I caught her the other day sitting there holding a huge book on the types of trolls and imps. Then when I was chasing her around the room she climbed up the stairs to his tank and jumped in, her little cheeks puffed out as she looked at me, then sunk to the bottom, sitting there and let out bubbles out of her mouth. She could breathe underwater. She loved water just as much as he did. It didn't surprise me that she loved it, she was his daughter after all. But now she was playing with her cousins while I watched, Liz and Red were out getting something for christmas. I was in charge of the kids, which I didn't mind. It sucked that Liz and Red had been so careful to not speak about him. It wasn't like it hurt my heart to the point it caused physical pain to hear his name. He hasn't contacted us once, no note, no phone call nothing. Sometimes I found myself crying at night, but I knew they could hear me, but I didn't care. Rose was almost too much like him, doing the small things that he would do. Get annoyed when something didn't always make sense, read or want to be read to. She loved his thousand year eggs. She tolerated coffee, but refused to eat fish. She was him but in a little girl form.

" Mama!"

Her voice was soft, as she called to me. Her eyes were pleading as May and Bella played with her hair. She liked it down, not twisted or pulled. But they loved playing with it even if she found it uncomfortable. Getting off the couch I scooped all three into my arms and spun around, then set them on the couch as I started to tickle them. Their squeals had me laughing with them, which wasn't something that happened much. After a few moments I pulled away, grinning down at the three little ones,

" Who wants a snack?"

All three girls raised their hands and then slid off the couch. They ran off to their respective highchair, May and Bella both climbed up into their chair while Rose waited for me to lift her up into the chair. After hooking the trays to the chair I got to work, making homemade kiwi and strawberry smoothies. It was one of their favorites that I made them once in awhile. It was good for anyone, but it was something that Red thought wasn't sweet enough. I had the girls chairs sitting in a half circle around me as I fed them, drinking some for myself as I did so.

" It it good girls? I hope you like it, Mommy thinks its super yummy!"

I grinned at Rose, only for her to frown, but it wasn't that it was her, but more like his. A lump grew in my throat as she just about glared at me. How could I get over him? Liz already said to stop holding onto him, that he was gone. He would have called by now, but no. She said he was gone. Red was with me on holding out hope. Besides, he promised he would come back. I was never going to give up on him, never. I would never allow myself to forget him, he was my one and only.

" Mama?"

Rose's voice came through, soft and sweet. She wasn't glaring anymore, but she was smiling.

" Up?"

They were holding their arms up waiting for me to get them out of the highchair. When I did they all hugged my legs, clinging tight as I started to cry. So I just stood there with three little girls hugging onto my legs when Red and Liz walked in, arms filled with bags of stuff. They took one look at me and Liz sighed.

" Damn it Abe."