The White Rose Association

Breakdown [III]

(Nastasia on top)

Eva looked at me shocked.

"Alice, where did you get those reckless ideas from?" Eva asked me as she narrowed her gaze at me.

I gave a sight in exasperation.

"Eva, please I am a teenager and all but I'm not stupid; I can see the way you both look at each other." I told Eva as I tried to read her expression.

"Alice, there is nothing going on between your father and I, have that clear from now on." Eva said trying to not raise her voice at me.

I gave a small groan as I got off the counter.

"Alright I take it back and I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable." I said as I left the kitchen even if I was not even a little bit convinced by her answer.

I knew she was lying.

I headed to the living room and with a sight I sat down on the sofa but I accidently sat on Ryder's legs, he was sleeping in the sofa.

Ryder opened his eyes and looked at me.

"I'm sorry Ryder; it wasn't my intention to wake you up." I said apologizing as I stood up.

"It's okay, why aren't you in bed Doll?" Ryder said as he sat up and got near me.

I shrugged.

"I just couldn't sleep, I know this might sound strange but even if I slept my whole life in a bed alone I somehow got used to sleeping next to you in a bed, I can't sleep well if you're not in bed with me, and I guess I just got used to your presence." I said in a small voice.

Ryder placed his arm around my shoulders.

"I know Doll, because the same thing happens to me. But before you say anything Doll, I'm sorry, you know for earlier." Ryder said and I could hear the regret in his voice.

I gave a sight.

"It's alright Ryder, really. I know you didn't mean to, we were both tired and I know that you were all worried, you had all the right to be furious and I just acted as if I never did anything wrong." I said as I shook my head.

"Still that doesn't justify my behavior, just look what I caused." Ryder said, I could tell that he was angry at himself.

"Ryder, it wasn't your fault I just got overwhelmed by my own emotions, I never thought I would get another breakdown." I said as I looked at him.

"Another? What do you mean by another?" Ryder asked me and I nearly cursed my small slip.

"I had a breakdown before when I was fifteen, you see normally on Saturdays the professors would be on a meeting and we would have the day free to go out. One Saturday my friends and I decided to camp out in the West forest of the Academy, then some of us went hiking and for an hour or so I got lost then when I last remembered I was surrounded by vampire that wanted to kill me, thankfully Nicholas and Beck along with other hunters heard my screams, if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be alive right now. When they took me back to the Academy I was so hurt and scared that I eventually had a breakdown and ever since that day it was forbidden for me to go to the forest alone without protections and since that incident Beck and Nicholas became my protectors." I said in a low voice, it was nearly a whisper.

"So, that's why you risked your life for Nicholas last night or I am wrong? You did it because he saved your life before?" Ryder asked me as he placed the pieces together.