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Chapter 5 - Bittersweet

~Daisy's P.O.V~

He's really sweet. Lewis, I mean. Sweet, nerdy, cute. heh, why am I saying these things? He doesn't like me back, I think he hates me. Honestly. That little promise that nobody in the group would be in a relationship, the little promise that Cherry and Daniel broke. Why does it matter anymore? Honestly, Skylar's broken the promise by going out with somebody out of the group at some point. And I'm sure Lewis has a girlfriend, why would he be hanging out with bloody Megan Park  all day if they weren't going out? He loves her. She's pretty, smart, kind, funny. And I'm insane, anxious and depressed. I'm jealous, sure.

I walked down the hallway, dodging the feet and ignoring the whispers like always. I walked into the libary, head down, in a world of my own. Of course... I walked straight into someone.
"Sorry! Sorry!" I shook my head and looked at the person. Blonde hair, blue eyes. Shy, shocked expression. I smiled, I knew Ben wouldn't be mad at me.
"O-Oh, D-Daisy, it's fine." He smiled sweetly, a smile that I only saw rarely. And oh gosh did I love it. It was the kinda smile that you see rarely from a usually poker face or smirky person. I think I may have blushed a little bit. And I think he may have noticed this. "Your alone- f-for once." We stood away from the door of the libary to stop people walking into us.
"Yeah, Lewis is with his new girlfriend, Cherry and Daniel are off snogging each other's faces of. And Skylar's off with another group." I sighed then smiled. It was a sad sort of smile. A smile that said 'My crush is now popular and taken, please hang out with me and give me hugs'.

Me and Ben sat down and chatted for the rest of the time. It was fun. We were practically invisible in the corner. So no people shouting at me saying 'Go to hell'. I mean, I am living female satan according to Daniel, so that shouldn't be to hard for me to do.
"Lewis and Megan aren't going out." After a short while of silence, Ben said something, and it gave me butterflies. But the butterflies must be red, because it was butterflies of anger.
"Yeah, sure, how do you explain Lewis's new post?" That post of him with his arm around Megan at a coffe shop with the caption with just a heart emoji and a kiss emoji. I think I snapped too much.
"S-Sorry, I-I didn't know!" Ben shuffled a bit away, his freckled face dusted with a light red. He was blushing. Cherry's told me, I know why.
"Oh, I'm so sorry for snapping- It's just... Lewis means alot to me, and to see him so happy with another girl, it just..." The butterflies were blue now. My vision had gone blurry, my heart beat had tripled itself, I knew I was going to cry. I always hate crying, and I don't often. My tears never came when I wanted to cry, never ever. It happened when I had good dreams and woke up to find I was still in reality, and there was no escape. Apart from that, I just don't cry. I guess now was an exception.
"Don't apologize, I-I understand..." His voice seemed sad and shakey. Again, I knew why.
"Yeah..." I murmered, a hot tear threatening to make me look like an idiot.
"Hey, hey, don't cry." That sweet smile again. "If you ever need me, I'll be here for you." I smiled at my words, the words I said to him when I saved him from Liam.
I had the feeling me and him were going to be good friends.