YouTuber X Reader One Shots

Don't {CDawgVA x Harming!Reader}

You have depression, you can't stop it. It's serious too. You harm yourself.

Connor doesn't know about it, you keep it hidden by wearing long sleeves. You wear long sleeves in the summer, you complain that it's cold, which concerns Connor since it feels like the sun hates you outside.

You were sweating a lot one summer, you refused to take off your sweater. Connor gave up trying.

Right now, you had just cleaned up from your latest harming spree, not realizing you had blood on the pad of your foot. You walked out of the bathroom and to the kitchen, where Connor was making dinner.

"Hey!" you said.

He turned to you with a smile, but it faded when he looked at the floor behind you.

"What?" you asked.

"What's that?" he pointed to the floor behind you.

You turned around and saw small blood stains on the floor, your eyes widened at the sight and you turned back to Connor quickly.

"What did you do?" he asked.

You broke down and cried, falling to the floor. Your hands were over your eyes as you cried, a loud sob rang out from your throat. You were shaking, you didn't want him to leave you because of this.

"(Y/N), what did you do? Why is there blood on the floor?"

You didn't answer, just continued crying. You couldn't bring yourself to tell him. Connor sat next to you and hugged you, rubbing your back and resting his chin on your head. He wanted you to calm down before he got you to explain.

It took a while, but you eventually calmed down and your tears ran dry. You sighed and looked at Connor, who had a concerned look on his face.

"Are you okay?"

"No..."

"What's wrong?"

"I'm depressed..."

"About?"

"I hate myself, I want to die."

"Don't."

"What?"

"Don't. Do you not know how much I love you? How much you mean to me, to others?"

"No, because I don't see myself as important."

"I love you, so much, (Y/N), everyone we know cares about you, we'd be shattered if you left us."

"You don't mean that."

"I do, when have I ever lied to you?"

"You never did."

"My point exactly."

"But-"

"Don't you dare say anything bad about yourself. You are more than what you think you are. You're beautiful, you're perfect, you're everything I know you are. I don't want you to tell me that nobody cares, because you know damn well that I care."

You didn't know what to say, you knew he was telling the truth. He never lied to you. You stood up to go to your room when Connor grabbed your arm and pulled you down. You landed on top of him, your hands next to each side of his head. He smiled up at your flustered face.

You stuttered, trying to figure out what to say. Connor chuckled and pulled you closer into a hug.

You smiled a bit and hugged back, the feeling making you very happy.

"(Y/N)?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you."

"I love you too."