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Engaged {CDawgVA x ED! Reader}

ED: Eating Disorder
Just to clear that up.
Also, yes, I'm gonna be incorporating BTS into my writings in this book now because I am OBSESSED and I LOVE THEM!
So enjoy.
Also this was requested, so yeah, thanks for the request!
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Every day felt like torture for you. All you did was just starve and starve until you forced yourself to eat until you threw it all up again.

This was a constant struggle for you, because you just can't stop.

Your boyfriend, Connor, tried to get you to eat when you wouldn't, you always saying that you were dieting and you already ate your calories for the day, which was nothing but a lie. You couldn't deal with trying to get better because it meant more pain for you.

All because your ex was a major assbag who made you feel like you had to be the perfect model so anyone could have you. Your fakeass friends made negative remarks about how you had no ass or breasts that would appeal to any guy. So you constantly exercised to get your butt into better shape, but you never once stepped foot in a plastic surgery center for a boob job, because you didn't feel like it would be right.

But in spite of all the hell you put yourself through, Connor was always there for you. And that's what made you fall for him. He was a very caring guy who was genuinely concerned about the friends he made. Hell, he even introduced you to Ally (the cancer patient that he called that one time in that super emotional video that MADE ME CRY!) who you thought was extremely adorable and brave for what she was going through. You could tell how much he cared about the friends that he's made, and that caring personality you loved, it got you into music. More specifically, BTS and Kpop.

As of right now, you were in your room, writing down lyrics to a song you were going to make for your own YouTube channel (YT/N), but you couldn't get any inspiration. So instead, you pulled up "4 O'Clock" by V and RM of BTS and gave it a listen.

You sang the song in English, as you knew the beat well and you studied the lyrics for days.

"I wrote a long letter
to the moon one day
It isn't brighter than you but
I lit a small candle

The nameless bird that sings
In the park at dawn
Where are you
oh you

Why are you crying?
It's only you and me here
Me and you
oh you

Your singing voice
That follows deep into the night
Brings the scarlet morning
One step, then another step

Dawn passes by and
When the moon falls asleep
Then the blue light that was with me
Disappears"

You were quite a skilled rapper, your channel was popular for your rapping ability.

"Today, too, I go on living just enough
Keeping in step, wearing my feet out just enough
The sun makes me breathless
The world has stripped me of all I have
Without a choice, with no other alternative
Under the moonlight I am picking up my scattered self
I call you moonchild
We are children of the moon
We draw breath from the cold air of dawn
Yes we're livin and dyin
At the same time
But right now it's alright to open your eyes
Because like any movie, like any dialogue
The whole world is blue under the moonlight"