why me? | sean lew

4th Scar and Him

Unpacking made me calm it separated me from the bad thoughts and experience I had with Sean.

Sean's POV
It hurts. So bad. It hurts more to see her suffer. This time I went dance class and went straight home. Getting closer to the front door I saw a note

"I love you, Goodbye?" - Y/N

With no hesitation I rushed in and screamed her name

"Y/N!!"

I ran upstairs not realising there was notes on the staircase.
As I open the Bedroom door

Her clothes was gone. Her books were gone. Her all her stuff was gone

"she was gone"

I knew I made a mistake. I love her but I just didn't show it,
I just didn't show enough

Great memories were made in this house. But if I act like this for the rest of my life those memories won't mean anything.

I looked around the bedroom with tears filling my eyes and there was a note hanged on the bed head board

"Was love made?"

Was it? I asked myself

I grabbed the paper and when downstairs and there were notes on the staircase

"Thank you and Sorry"

Thank you for what? Sorry for what?
She did not make one mistake in this relationship and why is she saying "sorry"

Looking around I realised there were notes everywhere

The..
kitchen
Living room
Bathroom
And
The Guest bedroom 

I looked at all them but I did the Guest bedroom last

"Where your lies lay"

Reading those four words made my sadness to anger. No realising I had punch a hole in the wall.

I took a deep breath and stared at my fist seeing it bleed. But the fist wasn't the thing that was hurting, it was my "heart" If I had one. If I had one, why didn't I give it Y/N? She would take care of it like it was her child.
But I guess I didn't

Staring at my fist made me think about

Where is she? Was she lost?
Would she be okay?
Would she kill herself?
Is she dead?

I ran downstairs and grabbed my car keys and drove to a place where she might be.

Y/N POV
As I was folding the last piece of shirt.
I saw his hoodie

grey lewser hoodie

I grabbed it and hugged it like there was no tomorrow,

"YOU CONNOT SEE HER SHE IS UNAVAILABLE!!" I hear my mother scream...