why me? | sean lew

6th Mark

Sean sat down next to me in the living room.

"S-sean are you happy?"

"Happy with what?" His eyes lit up with confusion

"Wait are you pregnant?" He exclaimed with excitement

"Sean no I mean are you happy with this?" I said

"What do you mean "this"?" He asked

"I mean us, all this, your life,me and all that jazz"

"As long as your next to me I'm happy"
He said as he leaned in and gave me a kiss on the forehead.

What I am suppose to do know?

I don't want to hurt him, and his little innocent heart.

Why is it that im trapped in this box again, why can't I can't open wings and just fly away? Fly away from reality

"Are you happy?" Sean asked

"Me, I am but I'm not satisfied"

There was silence till I realised Sean was tearing up.

I didn't mean it like that, what did I do?

"Sean!, you okay?"

As he snapped out of his thoughts he quickly wiped his tears causing it to spread to his cheeks and lifted his hood to be hidden.

"Y-y/n what are you not satisfied with?"

"Nothing it came out wrong"

"No Y/N just tell me, you don't have to lie for me to make feel better, show me my mistakes, the mistakes I don't see, the mistakes I ignore please"

"p-l-e-a-s-e"

"You did nothing wrong"

"Y/N stop lying"

"Me? Okay your right you got me, yes Sean I have been lying yo myself letting you in again was a lie, thanks for stating the obvious!"

"What your going to leave again and come back like any other stupid girls out there does" Sen exclaimed carelessly

"Yeah, maybe just because you'll beg for me again like any other stupid boys out there, huh? Thats what I though"

"Y/N, sorry!"

"OMG I haven't even left the house yet, you're already begging, sorry Sean I love you but.."

Not finishing my sentence I ran off asking myself

Why are you doing this again?
Will I comeback again?
What is happening?

Why?!, why me?!...........