why me? | sean lew

7th Mark

I left and I hope I'm never going back.
That my inner self won't pity him anymore.

The time I realised I will cry myself to sleep, except I'm walking around with no extra clothes, food, money what so ever. I was so broken I didn't know what I was doing.

Its
Dark
Cold
Windy
Sad
Lonely

the lake was still and waters were sleeping, so should I but where?

My brain wasn't focused on what happened with me and Sean is focused on asking myself how are am I going to survive?

I went in a Starbucks near us, to cool down.

No phone, money, jacket, nothing.

As I came in seeing the light I saw a familiar face.

"OMG! KEN!" I came up to him

He looked at me and hugged me
I hugged back, real tight.

"Y/N, are you okay? why you out?where Sean at?" He asked

"long story short"

"You want anything? We can chat"

"Oh um can I get hot chocolate?" I asked

"Yeah, here's  the money I'll find somewhere to sit"

"Okay thanks" I said as I grabbed the 10 dollar bill.

"Hello, Welcome to Starbucks, what can I get for you?"

"Um, can I get t a small hot white chocolate"

"Okay that will be $6.45"

"Here your change mam"

That was strange they usually ask for a name and would always spell my name wrong.

"Ken, I'm really sorry I ruined your "me time"

"All good beside, I wanted company"

I giggled a little

"So why you alone at night looking like that, well you don't look bad but your mascara is everywhere"

"Ken I'm broke"

"No money?"

"Everything Ken, me and Sean fought again, and I have no thing I don't even know where I'm going to spend the night at"

I started tearing up

"Well, before you cry lets work this out your parents?"

"I can but I don't want to they think I'm such a fool of letting Sean to love me again"

"What exactly happened with you and Sean?"

"I-I ho-honestly don'-t know, help me why I am such a failure?"

"You're not a failure, thats Sean fault he wants to hurt a beautiful girl let him but don't let him break you okay?" He said those words moving next to me putting his arm over my shoulder.

"Come sleep at my place, okay were my over sized jacket that smells good"

"Really ken *laughs*" I exclaimed

"Your chocolate is taking ages Im hallway my drink"

"I wonder why?" I answered

............

"Um excused me I ordered a white hot chocolate"

"Oh yes it's over there *points*"

"Oh thank you, why didn't you call my name?"

I looked at my cup and it said "Sean's"

"Oh sorry its cause I remember you and were with this guy and you guys are really cute, remember?"

"Oh yeah, well um really sorry but I can't take this order because Im not "Sean's" anymore"

"Oh would you like me to transfer it on another cup?"

"Yes please, thank you"

She passed my drink and I walked back to Ken.

"Well that took forever" he said

"Technical difficulties"

"WOW a girl is complaining *laughs*"

"Very funny San Jose *laughs*"

"Come on L/N lets get home"

"Okay"................