Hiding My Life (On Hold)

Chapter Eleven

Clary's POV

Unfortunately, it was Monday already and I hadn't talked to anyone about what happened between Jace and I and I've been avoiding him all week.

He's been apologizing nonstop since Tuesday, but I don't even speak to him anymore, just ignore him until I can get away.

Now, I've just showered, brushed my teeth, brushed and blow dried my hair and gotten dressed.

Ryder had bought everything I wore on my body right now. The dark gray infinity scarf, the gray t-shirt, black jeans, black boots and my favorite Superman hat, which I put on the hat after pulling my hair into a side fishtail braid.

"Ready for school, Clare?" I nodded to Jon and let him take my hand as we left the house. Dad had already left for work, so Jon was going to drop me off at school on the way to his.

I've been dreading going back to school, knowing that I'll have nowhere to run when I'm sitting in class with Jace.

I got into the passenger side of Jon's jeep while he got into the drivers side. He and dad both had really expensive cars, nothing like I'd ever dream of having.

I loved Jon's jeep better than dad's SUV though. It was more open and free. Exactly what I needed. "You okay, babe?" I nodded.

"I'm fine, just nervous. I don't want to talk to him, but Jace is persistent about me forgiving him. But, I won't. It's just not gonna happen, no matter what he does." He reached over and held my hand over middle console between us, interlacing our fingers together.

"You'll be fine, baby. But, if something happens, call me and I'll come get you." I smiled at him as we pulled up outside my school. "Have a good day, babe. Love you."

"Love you, too. See ya." I kissed his cheek and grabbed my bag, resting it on my good shoulder before getting out and waving to Jon as he drove off.

Once he was out of sight, I made my walk inside the school and to my locker. "Hey, Clary." Alec approached me, standing to my left as I opened my locker.

"Hey." I didn't want to talk to any of them. Anything I told them would always get back to Jace.

"Are you okay? You've been avoiding us all week. Did we do something wrong?" He asked and I turned to him, shocked.

"No, you guys didn't do anything. Jace seriously didn't tell you?"

"Tell us what?" I scoffed.

"Ask him and tell him to stay the hell away from me." I grabbed whatever books I needed for my first few classes and put them in my bag before shutting my locker and heading to class.

I sat down in my usual seat and pulled out my book to read while I waited for class to start. "Clary, can we talk?" Jace sat down beside me, yet I didn't look up from my book.

"No." Mr. Brown walked in, glancing at us curiously.

"Clary, please, I made a mistake. Can't you forgive me?"

"No." I repeated and he sighed.

"Clary, I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry for what I did and I don't even know why I did it. I just, we hadn't talked in a few days and I was wondering if you still liked me. Clary, please, please, forgive me." I shook my head.

"I hadn't talked to you because I was recovering from a fucking gunshot wound, so you can't use that as an excuse, it was only four days. You are an ass and I would really like for you to leave me alone." I stated calmly, though on the inside, I was angry as hell.

"Clary-"

"Jace, if the girl asked you to leave her alone, please do so. Deal with your issues away from my classroom." I looked up at Mr. Brown, silently thanking him.

Jace sighed and turned to the front of the class, staring at his textbook. Alec and Izzy walked in, sympathetically looking to me before taking their seats beside Jace.

I don't fucking want their sympathy.

Students flooded the classroom and Mr. Brown started the lesson for today.

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When lunch came, I got a small bag of chips and a water bottle before sitting down underneath a tree with my headphones in, music blaring in my ears.

I lit up a cigarette and took a long drag from it before blowing it back out, creating little rings of smoke. I scrolled through Facebook as I sat here, until my sunlight was blocked and I looked up, sighing.

"Guys, not now. Go sit with the jackass." I paused my music and pulled out my earbuds.

"We want to sit with you." I shook my head at Alec.

"Look, I'm sorry, but I'd really rather be alone right now. Okay?"

"Are we still going to be friends? I mean, I know that what Jace did was wrong, but he's still our brother. And, we still want to hang out with you." Izzy said and I sighed.

"I don't know, Izzy. How would that work? Us being friends? Because I'm not going anywhere near Jace and you'll be splitting your time between me and him. It'll be like a fucking divorce and you three are the kids. It just won't work. I'm sorry." Izzy nodded.

"If you change your mind, you know where to find us, Biscuit." I nodded and put my headphones back in, watching them walk away.

I took an extra long drag from my cigarette this time.

"Hello, Clarissa." I gasped, dropping my cigarette as he stood over me. "It's great to see you again." He whispered, clasping his hand over my mouth and he lifted me to stand on my feet.

This tree was a bit out of sight, so he didn't have to worry about other people finding us. "Let me go, please." My words were muffled under his hand.

He chuckled. "I don't think so, Clarissa." His free hand moved to my shoulder and forcefully pressed down, making me scream out in pain, but it was muffled, barely even heard by Sebastian.

When I was too weak to scream anymore, he pulled his hand away from my mouth and rubbed me over my jeans.

Not again. Please.

He shoved his thumb into my bullet hole before pulling it back out, covered in blood. "Think about what I'll do to you if you testify against me, Clarissa. Don't test me." He pulled away and left, letting me drop back down to my sitting position.

Snapping out of my daze, I held my hand over my shoulder to try and stop the bleeding.

"A-Alec." I whispered, trying to raise my voice. "Alec." I spoke, sounding normal, but hoarse. "Alec!" I yelled this time.

"Clary?!" He ran to me, dropping down beside me. "Hey, what happened to you?" I shook my head.

"Take me to the nurse, I just ripped my stitches. Please." He nodded and and picked me up bridal style, heading inside with Magnus trailing close behind us.