Foster Girl

Chapter Three

I stepped up unto the steps leading to the front door of the house. I grabbed the handle a little more than necessary and walked into the living room. Nobody was home as yet. Probably because they have friends Shay I told to myself.

Then my mind shifted back to Miles
What is with him? I thought. Throughout the short time I've known him he's never acted like that and I mean never. Maybe he finally figured out what a waste and disgrace that you are that he can't bear to be your friend anymore if he even considered you that a voice at the back of my head reminded me.

I refused to be sucked back into the pit of self hate again. I mean haven't I been through enough already I really don't need to start digging it again. It took me years to finally accept my self and all the issues that I had so I refused to let that voice intoxicate my thoughts.

Not again I gritted through my teeth, Not again. Out of nowhere I heard someone clear their throat behind me I titled my head around to see Jonah standing there. "Oh so you talk to yourself as well?"
"No" I muttered "sorry if you heard that" I said. I really wasn't in the mood to take on some of his bitchiness right now because I suddenly felt sick.

I kept my head down and went up the flight of stairs into my room. I had homework but I wasn't thinking straight right now. Everything seemed blurry and foggy right now but I didn't care. When I first moved here I swore I'd never let small things affect me again to the point that I'd end up crying. But right now that's all I wanted to do. Just Cry. I crawled into bed while fighting back tears, I couldn't possibly hold them in any longer so I let them all out.

I lied down face pressed into my pillow silently crying. After what felt an eternity I finally stopped crying and got the strength to sit up in my bed. My face was tear stained but I'd become so used to it that it didn't matter. I suddenly remembered that I shared a room with someone else and I didn't need him seeing me like this so I went into the bathroom to take a shower.

The shower was very effective because well my body felt better. My hair got wet while I was showering so I decided to just brush it back and let it dry on it's own. I found a fresh pair of shorts and a plain white T-shirt to put on.

Shuffling in my room I tried looking for my school bag but it wasn't in the room. Like an idiot I finally remembered where I left my bag it was downstairs. So was Jonah. I let out a small groan because I wasn't planning on leaving my room at all.

Reluctantly I opened the door and quickly made my way downstairs to grab my bag. Jonah was still here though he didn't seem to notice my presence which I took as a good sign. He was just there watching something on TV. He didn't seem one bit interested so he switched the channels every two seconds looking for something better to watch.

Looking at him from an angle where he wasn't annoyed or glummy he was really good looking actually. Geez Shay what if he catches you staring at him? Don't you have homework to complete?
Coming back to reality I walked back up the stairs trying my best not to disturb him.

He almost looked peaceful. Can't ruin a good thing now can I? Monday night was spent doing homework and assignments while listening to music and by 9:00 I had finished all my homework for the next three days.
Yep I totally don't have a life.

By 9:30 I was already in bed with the covers covering me from my feet up to my mouth. I heard footsteps on the stairs as soon as I closed my eyes. Great, Jonah's coming up I thought sarcasm evident. He came inside looking just as exhausted as I didn't feel.

I slightly opened my eyes peering at him as he took off his shirt. Jonah was hot his skin was absolutely compatible for the lighting in this room I thought. Too bad his back is turned to me though I was really more interested in what was in front but sadly I couldn't see. Suddenly all I saw was darkness meaning he had turned off the light.

I felt his shadow passed by my bed which meant he was going to bed. Slowly my eyes started closing and I was feeling weary so I let them close completely and I drifted off into a deep sleep. Guess I was tired after all.