Foster Girl

Chapter 25

So two days ago when it was decided that me and the guys were going on vacation to Jamaica I tried to get a few necessities before we would head off tomorrow at exactly five PM. I used my savings to pay for my ticket because as stated before I had too much pride to let Carson pay for everything.

The tickets actually cost 300USD and it was no problem to pay for them. I had a total of 700USD saved up and left myself with 400USD to carry with me to buy a souvenir or something. Today was packing day and I was actually having problems packing.

I mean I knew what exactly I wanted packed but I didn't know exactly how much pairs of clothing or shoes I needed to carry with me. I'd been spending the better part of an hour trying to decide what I should and shouldn't carry with me.

Almost all of my clothes were scattered on the bed and even some lying around on the floor. I think I even glanced one of my bras lying on Jonah's pillow. He was out so I didn't really need to worry about that for now.

I sighed out loud trying to gather all my thoughts together before I went insane. I grabbed my phone and found the one application on there that would help in calming me down. I swiped through my playlist until I found just the right song and begun playing it.

I closed my eyes for a minute and tried to calm myself down. Believe it or not that actually worked and within no time I felt calm and relaxed. I sighed then opened my eyes to the big mess around the room and I don't even know but its like all of a sudden I knew exactly what I needed to be packed and what could stay here at home.

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I was finally done packing which by the way took a lot of energy from my body. I decided to take a break from my room since I'd been in here for a while to go and get some fresh air. I actually didn't know how long I'd stay so I grabbed my Bluetooth headphones and made my way downstairs.

Although it wasn't early morning the air still felt crisp and fresh for some reason. I just descended from the steps that led to inside the house and was now on the pavement that leads out to the road. As I was about to walk off I pressed the small button at the side of my headphones and begun my walk.

As I walked I realized something. A couple months ago I was this antisocial self esteem lacking quiet girl that dreaded going to school and I only had one person that I could call my friend. Even then I still felt lonely. You know? Like I was always missing something. I used to think that maybe what I was missing was maybe my family or my dead father.

But, that's not it. Not that I don't miss my dad because I still think about him everyday day but, maybe all along all I was missing was living in the moment and more importantly people to live in the moment with me. I had to agree with myself on this if I'd never met the people that I'd met these past months I doubt I'd have had as much fun as I have.

Think about it if I hadn't spoken to Jonah would I have even met Chevon, Pierce,Carson? No.

No; I wouldn't have. Even when he was beyond rude to me I still talked to him and I was honesty happy that I did.  The first time he and I hung out was actually the beginning to a beautiful friendship and I was half hoping back then that he and I would have turned out to be more than just roommates. But not in the way you might think.

Then another memory flashed in my mind. I remember how Harper and I actually became friends it was when she and I were watching TV and she had the audacity to switch the channel to one where Dora was on or the audacity to threaten to put it on a porn channel. Then that time she helped me out when I was picking an outfit to go out with Miles.

Miles. He was the start to this all. I feel like if I hadn't met him. If he hadn't talked to the quiet shy girl in his English class then maybe today I'd be all by myself with nothing . Absolutely nothing. I'd just be going with actually no purpose. I'd just be there because I could be. Believe or not Miles came to me when I needed someone the most. I hadn't realized that I needed someone but that's the thing reflecting on it all now made sense.