Fifty Shades After

Chapter 9

Flynn POV

As I listen to Ana explain to events that occurred I received several messages from Christian. I notice Taylor looking towards the window and nod in positive shes awake but negative that he could come in. "So you have a habit of self isolation"? Ana replies "I never really thought of it but I suppose....I have some issues as a teen and no one believed me. That is a fear of mine that Christian will not believe that I did not want what happened with Jack". "Ana if I may"? She nods in the positive "Christian was there, he found the hotel you were at, because of this person's history he was concerned that something like this would happen. Taylor kept him from actually knowing how you were found from him and aside from getting Taylor and myself coffee he has not left hospital. As we talk he is blowing up my phone trying to see if he can see you. He will believe you. Would you like him to come in"? She looks relieved and nods yes.

Christian POV

It feels like forever since Flynn went in to see Ana. What's going on? How is my girl? I feel my phone vibrate and look to see a message from Flynn. You can come in. It takes everything in me not to run into the room but I walk towards to door and go inside. As I walk in I hear "Hi Christian" from a voice I haven't heard in so long. "Ana dear how are you feeling"? I ask not sure how to proceed. "Confused and sore but for the most part OK" "You don't know how happy it makes me to see you and talk to you again" "Thank you and Taylor for finding me when you did, I don't know how much longer I could have stood that". She looks away and I can see shame and embarrassment in her eyes. "Baby you have nothing to be ashamed of....it's not your fault. You did everything to prevent this...I know I checked him out he was going to do this one way or another and I am only sorry I wasn't able to prevent this pain". She takes a deep breath and I can see she is in pain. "Would you like me to call the nurse"? "No I can handle the pain". "Ana can I ask you something"? "Of course....." "Before Jack arranged things for what happened, how were you feeling? were you unwell or anything"? I see her thinking of my question before she answers "I'm not sure, I wasn't eating much and I was always tired. I just thought I was depressed. Why is something wrong with me"?

Now I have to break her heart again...this is not something I want to do but she has a right to know. I walk over to her and take her hand, kiss her knuckles "Baby after we brought you here the doctor asked me who I was to you before she explained what was wrong with you. You know your hurt from burns broken bones and the drugs he put into you". She nods "Well because of the drugs he hurt you more than we knew....Apparently my dear you were carrying my child. The drugs he gave you killed the baby. I am so sorry baby.....there was nothing they could do". 

Ana POV

I look frantically at Dr Flynn and he nods in sympathy. I start to cry for not even realizing that I was pregnant. "I am so sorry Christian I didn't protect our baby better" "Oh my love it's not your fault" "Christian is right my dear....it was that man's fault". I look at both of them and try to believe them. My baby I think and unconsciously touch my abdomen. A piece of Christian and I with his gray eyes and my smile. I shudder to think I lost that part of me. "Baby it's OK. The doctor said that you would be able to have children in the future if you wanted" "I know but I feel like I lost my last piece of you" I look away as I say this because it hurts. I have been violated and hurt and to top it off my child was killed by a maniac. "Dr. Flynn how soon till I can go home"? "Well I haven't been able to find your doctor but let me check if she is around". He leaves the room and its just Christian and I. "How did you know where to find me"? "Well I don't want you to think I was stalking you but I purchased SIP yesterday and the preliminary background checks came back and Jack's had a lot of red flags. So I contacted Roach and had him released from employment and that's when Welch found out you worked there and went on this trip with him. He found out things had been altered and I became nervous he would try something" "So your extreme stalker tendencies saved my life"? "It would appear so. Also Kate was concerned she couldn't get a hold of you since apparently you never told her we stopped seeing each other"? "I couldn't tell her while she was on vacation. I'll tell her when I get home"

Christian looks sad after I say this and I wonder why. Has he changed his mind? Does he miss me? Or just the fact of dealing with my drama. "Ana, I want you back. Since you left I have been is darkness no light. I can't function without you. I didn't leave my house for 3 weeks after you left. I want to try again". "But how can we? You want to control and hurt me punish me for some reason you won't tell me. I can't do that. I love you but I can not be what you need" "I don't need it anymore....The thought of going into that room makes me sick. I need you...I love you" I look at Christian in shock He loves me? "So your fine with vanilla"? "I hear its a very interesting flavor" he chuckles. "I want you to come home with me so I can care for you and make sure you are well". I think on this....who am I kidding I want him to hold me and kiss me and tell me its all going to be OK. Instead of answering I raise my arms to him, for him to hold me. "Awe babe I have missed these arms" as he gently takes me into his arms. I turn my face into his neck and breathe in his scent. I brush a kiss on his neck and whisper "Yes I want that too". 

Christian POV

She said YES. I kiss her cheek and whisper I love you. She sighs and looks tired. "Do you want to sleep"? "Yes but not alone....lay with me"? "Are you sure"? "Yes you won't hurt me". I take off my jacket and kick off my shoes and lie down with this beautiful angel. "May I lay my head on your chest Christian, I won't touch you other than that" she asks. I look into her eyes and nod in the positive. As she lays her head on my chest I wait for the burning pain that comes with contact but nothing. Just my Ana. I slowly release my breath and am surprised that I feel complete now. Flynn enters as Ana has just fallen asleep he whispers"They want to keep her about an hour or so then she can go home" "Arrange with Taylor for the plane to be ready when Ana wakes and we can all go back together. Also tell Taylor to retrieve Ana's belongings from the hotel". He nods and walks from the room. I have my Ana back and I am not letting go.

 After about an hour a nurse come in and says she can go home and her prescriptions are being sent to a pharmacy in Seattle later in the day. She manages to remove the IV and sensors without waking my Ana. She leaves for me to get her ready to leave. As the nurse leave Taylor returns with clothes for Ana to get ready and leave. I whisper "Ana love time to wake up". She groans and turns away...I kiss her forehead "Don't you want to go home"? She wakes up at that realizing where she is. "The doctor says I can go home"? "Yes she did while you slept and I will arrange for my mother to come and check you out when we get back". She looks embarrassed by that and I turn her face and say "Baby she's a doctor she has seen this before. She won't judge or criticism anything". "I know Dr. Grace won't I just feel stupid for falling into his trap" "Don't, you weren't able to be in control. Flynn will be flying home with us so if you need to talk and can't with me he will be there plus I believe he wants to see you for a little while. Make sure your OK". She nods her head and sees her clothing...Taylor brought her sweats and a baggy t shirt with her all stars. Even in baggy clothes she is the most beautiful woman in the world. She looks for undergarments and I believe Taylor forgot them...."The clothes from his room are at the police station as evidence and your luggage is aboard the plane...If you want just dress and we can find you proper underwear once aboard the plane". She looks at me shyly and nods. "Do you want me to go"? "No I don't really want to be alone and you make me feel safe". I nod and sit down in the chair. The words she utters is like a balm to my heart. She dresses quickly, I guess she really wants to leave. Taylor shows up with a wheelchair and she gives him a dirty look "Hospital policy Ma'am" "I know that doesn't mean I have to like it". We exit the hospital and make our way to the airport to return home to Seattle.