Fifty Shades After

Chapter 55

Ana POV

As I mention to my visitors about seeing my babies, Dr Greene enters my room. "Welcome back Ana. Your looking well. I'm sure everything was explained to you, but I want to reassure you if you so chose to have more children in the future it is possible. I wanted to reassure you of your fertility. You'll be here for 3 days, standard for C-sections and from talking to your mother in law the babies should be sturdy enough to go home with you at the same time. They are not taking to formula, we were attempting to supplement until you were available to breastfeed. Do you think your up to it or should be continue to try the formula"? "Thanks I'm ready to feed my babies. I was just asking for them a moment ago". Dr Greene nods "Wonderful now I know you must be in pain, we'll get you something for that after you feed the babies". I nod in agreement and notice Ray and Carrick get up. "Since  your feeding our granddaughters we think it'd be best if we leave and come back later today. We'll see about bringing Ted so he can meet his sister's plus have Gail pace you and them a bag to come home with". I nod and receive kisses from both of my dad's as they take their leave.

As the guys leave 2 nurses and Grace come into the room with my little babies. I feel tears threaten to fall as I look at the little miracles that have entered my life. They are the most beautiful little girl's I have ever seen. Christian was right they look like little angels. The nurse hands me one of the babies and I cradle her to my heart. As I do this she starts rooting around for milk. The nurse advises "Lower your gown rub the nipple over her mouth to get her to latch on. New babies tend to be sleepy but the smell of the milk should help wake them up". I take my nipple and rub it over her lips and she latches on like a barracuda sucking with a hearty appetite. I am stunned with how it burns a bit for the feeding. She continues for a few more minutes and I feel her jaw slack and release the nipple. I raise her to my shoulder instinctually to burp her, and she let's out a monster belch. I chuckle at this and the nurse who is still here takes this one and hands me the other. I follow the routine with my second daughter and she has a similar grip on my nipple. I sigh and relax against the pain I'm feeling. When she releases I burp her also releasing a louder belch than her sister. I chuckle "I didn't know it was a competition girlies". I cuddle my angel for a few moments longer before the nurse takes her back to the nursery. "Once someone is here with you in the room, we'll leave the girls. You can't walk yet so we'll take them to the nursery". I watch as they walk away and I feel tears well up in my eyes. I am so blessed with my babies.

The next day

After sleeping through the night without having to pee every 20 mins, plus I still can't walk yet. The babies are brought to me every 2 hrs to feed and they are hungry little monsters. I am thankful I have enough breast milk for the both of them. The nurse told me some mother's of twins don't have enough milk so they have to switch them both to formula. Christian wanted to stay the night with me, but I told him to go home so Teddy has some sense of normalcy because momma's not home. Teddy was too exhausted to come visit yesterday by the time the grandfather's got there so I have been told that he will visit today.

I doze after the morning feeding, not realizing how exhausting breastfeeding can be. I've changed their diapers and let me tell you that was disgusting. Whatever breast milk does to them.... I shudder to think about it. It's black and tarry and smells atrocious. I am now experiencing what I missed with Teddy and while I'm glad I get.to experience this, something's can stay missing. I laugh at myself.

When Christian comes today we need to discuss names for these little angels. I have some thoughts but I want this to be a joint effort. I can't wait until I can go home and we can all be a family, start making our lives mesh together. As I muse in my mind Christian walks in with my main man. "Teddy mommy's so glad to see you". Christian places him gently on the bed as Teddy crashes into me and kisses me in sloppy kisses. "Mommy's sorry she didn't come home last night. Your little sisters decided they wanted to come meet you". He babbles his own language as Christian comes to kiss my lips. "Should I be jealous that my son has more of your attention then I do"?  I ponder jokingly "Well he is better looking". Christian growls lowly and I giggle. "No one can ever take your place Christian you should know that by now". He nod "I know that baby, I just want all of your love". I sigh "You do baby, but you do have to share with our children". "Well if I have to....". I chuckle "Speaking of children Christian we never got to discuss names. Since Dr Greene is letting me go home tomorrow they need names". He laughs "can't call them baby Grey A and baby Grey B"? I scowl at him "No its not even cute to joke. So I thought you could name our first daughter and I'll name our second". He nods "I actually have thought of names since they arrived I was thinking for baby A Hailey Marie Trevelyn-Grey". I look at him and smile "I really like that but since your last name is so long we can go with just Grey. I was thinking for baby B since she had a lot of your tenaciousness we'd call her Parker Grace Trevelyn-Grey". He ponders this and smiles "I love the masculine name for my little spitfire. She's gonna be just like me taking her the world". I chuckled glad we agree on the names "That she is...mistress of the universe just like Mr Master in front of me". "I don't know what you are implying my beautiful wife". "I'm sure you don't. Why don't you call the nurse to bring in the girls so Teddy can meet his sister's". Christian nods and goes to fetch our daughter's. We sit in bed with Teddy talking to me a mile minute, I begin to feel peace sweep into my soul.

The next day

I am released from the hospital with the girls longing for the comfort and peace of nature. We settle the girls into their nursery finally having the ability to get settled into life with no more reminders of the past, everything there being settled.