Fifty Shades After

Chapter 27

Ana POV

I get to the apartment about the same time as John. We ride the elevator up together, making idle chit chat on our way up. We enter the apartment to see Ryan at the entryway, nods as he sees me and goes to Taylor's office. "Can I get you something to drink John"? "Yes dear a glass of white wine....even though I am on duty per se I am still going to enjoy Christians wonderful wine". As I go into the kitchen to get John a glass of wine, I look longingly at the wine. Oh how I will miss you, sweet wine. I get his wine as I get myself a glass of iced tea. I walk back over to John and hand him his wine and he notices my drink, "Ah hell Ana, I forgot. I'm sorry you should have reminded me". "Don't be silly, I don't expect everyone to change because I'm not drinking. I'll get used to it". "So have you thought of how you will break it to Christian"? "Hmm mm, not really, I'm thinking I'm gonna wing it a bit. But I have you hear to help direct me down the right path". As I finish my statement, I hear the elevator open and Christian step into the apartment. "Hello babe....John nice to see you. I didn't know you were going to be here this evening" Christian says as he comes over to hug and kiss me. "Well Christian, I missed my favorite client, Ana, and she invited me to dinner and you know I can not resist Mrs Jones's cooking so here I am". "Christian babe, can I get you a glass of wine"? "Yeah baby, what ever your drinking" "I'm not drinking wine tonight, but I'll get you white like John". "So John not that you aren't always welcome here, but why are you really here"?  I walk back into the room and hand Christian his wine. I sit next to John, look at Christian sitting in a chair near by, I wait for him to drink a little before I start to break the news. "So babe, I love you very much. I have something to tell you and I am not sure how you will take the news" "Whats going on Ana? Your scaring me now".

 "I don't mean to. I have wonderful news my love. I am pregnant. I am about 9 weeks and everything looks healthy". I look over at Christian and he looks frozen in shock. I look over at John wondering what to do next. "Christian, what are you thinking"? John tries to get his attention. "Ana, how did this happen? You are on birth control. What is going on here"? "Your guess is as good as mine Christian. Yes I am on birth control, you see me take it every morning. But you have to remember that it is not 100% effective. It's only like 85%. This is not something I was expecting to happen right now, but I am going to say that I will roll with it. I know we can do this together. But I understand if you don't. I won't judge or condemn you, just don't let me think your there and then say 'No I can't do this, I'm out' cause I won't tolerate that".  Christian looks shocked and gets up and walks away. I look at him dumbfounded. Seriously? "Wow, I did not expect that. I expected him to be upset, but not walk away. We have gotten so much better at communication, and when we need it the most he shuts down". "Let me go and see what I can do Ana". I watch John walk towards Christians office and he comes back right away..."He's not there. He must of left the apartment". I am devastated. "Well John, dinner is ready so lets eat and figure this out after". We ate dinner together, not really speaking, me thinking what I need to do now that I have basically been abandoned. "John, would you mind dropping me at a friends? I really don't want to be here alone tonight. I don't want to take a car because he will just track it" "Sure Ana, whatever you need. Don't despair though, he may just be taking time to deal with this. I don't think he ever thought of himself with children in his life" "I know, but we should be able to talk, not just walk off. This is happening to both of us, not just him. I didn't see this happening for a few years at least and preferably me being married". I go into my room and gather clothes for a few days, my computer and phone charger, also my iPod. I walk back into the living room to see John standing looking over the Seattle sky line. I love that view. "I'm ready when you are". He nods and we go to the elevator. No one is around, a new concept and we leave the apartment.

 "So where am I taking you Ana dear"? "Actually can you take me to the Fairmont Olympic Hotel, I will call in a reservation but make sure my name is kept private. I have plenty of cash thankfully so I don't have to use credit cards". I go into the hotel and check in to a room under an alias, they don't require ID and I make my way there to relax and sleep. Sleep, it turns out, is hard to come by. I email Roach and let him know I won't be in until next week... I am unwell and want to make sure I am 100% healthy before I come back. Then I turn off the phone and try once again for sleep.

Christian POV

I walk out of the living room and just keep going. Pregnant? She's fucking pregnant. I know she is taking precautions and that is also what is shocking to me. I never saw myself as a father, how could someone as fucked up as me try and raise a child. I leave out of the fire exit and take my car and just drive. I do not even know how to comprehend what is going on. All I know is that I want Ana, and she seems determined to keep this pregnancy. I understand, after what happened before, but I wanted to show her the world, have many adventures. Kids were in the background for me, abstract not really a major thought. Now I have to figure out what I want to do. 

Do I want to be selfish and not be with Ana and my child? Do I stay and hope I am not a bad father? I don't know. I drive to my club and have myself a few drinks. I try not to think too much, just lose myself in drink. All of a sudden Taylor is calling me and he never calls. "Taylor what's going on" I slur. "Mr Grey, is Ms Steele with you"? Hearing this question sobers me a bit. "No I left her there with Flynn. I have been gone for a while. Have you checked everywhere"? "Yes sir, her car is here, her phone is off and no activity on her cards. That's why we thought she was with you". Fuck.....why did I have to leave. "Call Kate, my brother, my mother and Flynn....somebody has to know where she is. Check hotels for check ins with her name. Just find her, she is in delicate health". "Yes sir, on it". "Never mind, I will call Flynn but take care of everything else". I hang up and dial Johns cell phone. 

Come on, pick up "You better have a good reason for calling me at 11:30 in the evening Christian" "John do you know where Ana is? She isn't in the apartment, doesn't have her car or using her cards. I need to find her". "Why"? "What the fuck do you mean 'why'? I need to know where she is, I need to know she is safe".  "If you were so concerned, you wouldn't have walked out on her. She is safe. If that is all your calling for, I'd like to go back to sleep" "No that's not all, where the fuck is she? This isn't a fucking game". "You know Christian for a smart man, you are very stupid. Did you actually expect her to stay there after she tells you something major and you chose to just up and walk out? Seriously. She needs time to deal with the thoughts of being a single parent. She was devastated and shocked. She thought you had come so far in communication and when she needed you to communicate you left. Give her time, she will probably forgive you eventually but she needs space. You caused this shit show". "John just tell me where she is. I need to go to her please". "Sorry Christian I can't and I can guarantee you will not find her anywhere under her name or mine before you think of it. She knows your tactics. Why do you think her car is there at Escala? She knew you would track her. Give her the space she wants. You left why can't she"? "John, I just needed time to wrap my head around the facts of a child. I am afraid of being a shitty father. I don't think I could be without her, but I don't think I want a child either". "Well, then you won't have Ana. She may not have planned this child, but I can tell she will keep it and if you try and talk her into an abortion, she will hate you. Give her the night, more than likely after work she will contact you in some way".  "John just if you talk to her, let her know I want to speak with her, I love her so much. I don't think I can live without her" "Christian, are you drunk"? "Nooo". "You are (sigh) where are you". "The space needle club, why"? "I will be there in 10 minutes to pick you up. You are too drunk to drive and knowing you, you have your entire security team looking for Ana. Stay put and get a cup of coffee, I don't want you sick in my car". "Thanks John". "Stay put". He hangs up and I wonder what to do. I need to find her, but John says I won't be able to. I will call her at work tomorrow and tell her how much I love and need her and we will figure this out.