PAINFUL BEGINNINGS
It finally happened
The terrifying day where I don't know what to feel anymore
I knew that it will arrive anytime
But why does it have to be this soon?
I am not yet ready to felt this time alone
I know that I have found some new friends,
But no one will replace all of you
No one will supersede your special place in my mind and in my soul
You all completed me
All of you fulfilled my empty heart before it's completely shattered
You light up my dull life
And helped me step out of my comfort zone
Thank you for lifting me up when I'm feeling down
Thank you for being there for me when no else was
Thank you for making me smile when all I want to do is to cry
Thank you for everything when we all started from nothing
I am used to seeing all of you every day of my life
I am used to talking with all of you for every given time
I am used to being with all of you every minute
But how can I be used to not yearning for all of you every day?
Tell me how... Please tell me how...
Can you please help me from not breaking down when we part our ways and got to our whereabouts?
I thank all of you for fixing my heart when it's all wreck
But now, for the nth time, it is once again broken
Why does it have to be this soon?
Why does it have to end?
Why do you have to leave?
Why do people always left me?
Am I not worth staying for?
Am I not worth sacrificing for?
Am I not worth crying for?
Am I not worth it?
I understand your reasons
I knew that everything happens for a reason
I may not know the whole story
But I promise to understand and won't leave you hanging
We will separate soon
We will part our ways to travel different paths
We will meet new people to cherish
But all of you will have this spot in my life that will never be forgotten
This may be God's plan for all of us
To part ways so we can learn to grow up
It might be one painful plan that He created
But this pain will soon be our reason to stay and to not be bent
This pain that I've felt will soon vanish
This yearning from the people I love will soon become memories
Memories that I will gladly reminisce and relive as long as I will live
And this tears that fell out my eyes will soon become the tears of happiness
I'm still hoping that everything will divert from what is happening right now
I am still praying that all of you will stay
I'm begging you to stay even though I know it is not possible
I am still convincing myself that you will stay with me
It is indeed a painful piece for me to write
But I can't just contain my sadness and sorrow
How can I face a new tomorrow?
Knowing that when that day comes, I will not be able to see your faces and shadows
