Sebastian Stan Imagines

«Ask Me How I Know -Sebastian»

Title: Ask Me How I Know

WC: 1028

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Sebastian

I sat there in a chair in some white room. Where am I?

"You're stubborn as they come. You'll never settle down. You'll always be the one who doesn't stick around. You make all the rules and you set in your ways. Cause you gotta have your freedom and your space..." The voice spoke. I looked around wondering to what he means.

"Cause one day you'll meet the girl..."

Then I woke up in my set chair. I sighed. I stood up out of my chair stretching. Then someone ran into me. I held onto the girl. I stared into her eyes. She was beautiful.

"Sorry." I spoke as she spoke up to say sorry. She blushed.

"No it's my fault." She told me. I stared at her. She's beautiful I can not believe I never met her before.

"Kristina Cook. Bucky's love interest." She spoke up and put her hand out. I smiled. I grabbed her hand.

"Sebastian Stan. Bucky." I shook her hand. Her eyes widen and she blushed.

"Uh I thought I wouldn't meet you today."
"Well I guess we did."

"Cause one day you'll meet the girl you swore you never find..." The same voice from my dream went through my head. I looked up. I looked back her. She is smiling widely.

As time went by we hung out, we made jokes, we cried tears of joy and laughter. As we eat lunch together it hit me. It hits me.

"Start feeling things you never felt..." The voice went through my head. She laughs at a joke I had made. I then started thinking.

"And spending all of your time trying to figure out how she got this hold on you..." The voice went through my head as I stare at the ceiling at night thinking how I feel about her.

Her dirty blonde hair. Her green eyes full of blue and light. Her smile that makes me smile when I just think of it. Her soft skin I love to touch everyday of my life. Her fragile hands that I want to hold in my hands. Her body I just want to hold close to me. Her lips I just want to kiss and make her lipstick smeared.

"And when you start to fall, you'll hold onto your pride..." The voice spoke as see the photo of her and her boyfriend. I felt the anger build up in me. I felt the jealously fill up in me. I feel the pain of heart break in my chest.

"Start building up your walls and never letting her get inside..." I looked at her. She is crying. She is crying because I would not let her in. She just broke up with her boyfriend just for me. I stared at her as she cried for me to let her in. But I cannot anymore. I cannot let her in. I put the walls up. I cannot just break them down. It would just be too hard to do it.

"Please Sebastian..." She pleaded to me.

"You'll push her away 'cause that's all you know how to do and then she'll leave and you won't beg her not to go." I watched her as she walked away. I felt the pain in my heart to see her walk away. I love her and I am letting her go.

"Ask me how I know." The voice spoke. I sat there drunk. I held the bottle. I stared down it. I miss her. She walked out of my heart months ago.

"...Maybe then you won't end up like me." The voice came back. Anger grew through me. When I met her. When I fell in love and ended up being the broken hearted. That is when the voice came. I threw the bottle to the ground.

"Get out of my head!" I yelled holding my ears. The pain of her being gone drove me crazy. I need her. I stood up. I walked over the glass. I had shoes on. I walked out the room. I ran out the apartment. I ran out the building. I need her. I ran and ran. I got a taxi. I headed towards her place. I know she has to be there. The car parked. I got out. I ran up to the buzzer. I hit it.

"Who is it?"
"Kyle." I lied. Kyle is her brother. Then the buzzer went off. I opened the door. I run upstairs. I ran and ran. I need to see her. I need touch her. I need to hold her. I need to kiss those lips. I need her.

I get to her apartment door. I was about to knock on the door. I finally knocked on it. She opens it. She had a smile until she saw me.

"Sebastian. What do you need?" She asked.

"Kristina I need you."
"What do you mean?"
"I needed you since I've ever met you. I needed you to be with me ever since I finally figured out I lo-" I stopped myself from saying those words. If I say those words. She will not even talk to me in the end.

"What, Sebastian? When you figured out how to block me out? When you realized that I'm not meant to be with you?!" She yelled at me. I stood there not knowing what to say. How to answer the questions.

"Well fucking tell me!" She commanded. She is angry. She even has tears in her eyes. I took her head in my hands. I pull her close to me. Finally I did the right thing.

I then wake up on my chair. I look around. Back at the very set where I first met her. I got out the chair. Then someone ran into me. There she is as I hold her. I help her get balanced and let go of her. I was smiling so wide. I can make everything up. I can be with her. I will not build that wall in my heart again. I will do it right this time.

"Sebastian Stan. Bucky."