I love you too mithzan X Shelby pt2

Home sweet home ?

Shelby's POV

I get home and notice a note left on the counter. "Gone out for a bit. Bianca is with Alesa. I love you~Max X" oh yeah of course I'm going to believe that after all that's happened regarding Amber! Okay so my little nugget is with Alesa now that do I do? Well there's been a little bit of gaps in videos. Maybe I should make an exclamation video. I walk over to my draws and pull out my camera. "3,2,1 hello! And welcome back to my channel. It's been a while but I can explain! Eh, I have been taking a break from YouTube because there's a lot going on in my life at the moment. But I'm back! I hope. Uploads will be back normally tomorrow. And that's it! Byeeeeeee!" Okay, that was quick. I have no idea what to do now. I know I should sleep but I won't be able until Max is home. I know I said he can sleep on the couch but I miss my snug bug. Ughhhhh. I need to keep myself amused. But how? My laptop is in the offices so I can't play any minecraft. What if I... Eh. I have no idea. I walk over to the mirror and see this pregnant lady staring back at me. I must admit I was a little spooked. I forgot about this problem. Ughhhhh. I mean I'm not that big am I? I'm only 1 month pregnant. But I do look a little big. Now I'm sad. I walk upstairs to my I mean our bedroom. The bed is unmade and there's an empty bottle of pills. My heart starts pounding. There's a letter. Petrified I don't read it. I pick my phone up and call Max. That's no help as I'm sent to voice mail. Shit now I'm freaking out even more. Getting over my fear I read the latter. It's a poem.
Fake smile
Dried eyes
Scratched wrists
Bruised thighs
White pills
Rope tied
Gun loaded
Suicide.
~Shelby

My name was signed at the bottom. I don't remember writing this. I walk into the bathroom and discover a mess. There's stuff a lover the ground. I'm extremely confused. What the he'll happened to my house? I don't remember any of this? I just remember walking up the stairs and nothing else. Tim was meant to come over. I think it was Tim. My head is spinning. Maybe I should get some sleep. It's weird Max still isn't here. It's 1:06am. This isn't like him.