(This cover picture is not mine. Got it from internet)
Updated 4/30/17
It's funny... I'm always telling everyone to love themselves, accept themselves,that there is no such thing as ugly but like...i see myself as ugly. I don't love or accept myself. I bully myself everyday. When I look in the mirror,I can't help but point out all my flaws. This is totally different but...some people would say that I quite frequently seem mad or sad. Some people even say that I look as if i want to hurt someone. Others say that I'm always happy,but am i really? Have they seen me for a long enough period of time where they can actually see if I'm truly happy or not? The other day,I was as happy as can be and then the next thing I know...im angry,upset,mad. I acted very...rebellious as some might say. My teachers know my limits. I've been put in the hallways a few times because I would get out of control. I mean...i don't blame them. I don't like to hurt people. Even if they deserve it. I feel bad afterwards. Anyways back to the point. I would be happy one minute,mad the next,and then a few seconds after I'd be mournful. I couldn't decipher what was going on exactly. People were coming to see that I wasn't okay. They repeativly asked me what was wrong but guess What? You should never ask me if I'm okay because the answer will always be the same: "I'm fine" or "I'm always okay". Most of the time,it's actually not true. I can be crying and I'll still say I'm fine. A couple of days ago...we were learning about anxiety in health class. I never realized that all the signs to help us see if someone had anxiety,were completely relatable. I realized that I said all those negative things about myself. I can't believe i didn't see it before. I am now working on trying to see positive things about myself. So far,I've been unsuccessful but I'm trying. It may take a while but eventually, I believe that i will make it there. I just need a little bit of help,and with that...my low self esteem won't be as low anymore.
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Hello everyone. I really hope that you know you're all beautiful in your own way. I love each and every one of you. My inbox is open to all of you who want to talk or need help. I'm always here. Love you❤
