Hey Daddy,I miss you...quite a lot actually. I know that we barely knew each other but I miss you. I had a dream months ago,you were in it. Was that a sign? Are you watching over me? Can you see me? In the dream,you were speaking to me. I was afraid to look at you though but when I did look at you, something happened. It was like I was having flashbacks. When I looked at you,I saw me being born. I saw blood. I was coming out of mom...and then all that blood was wiped off. I see a male doctor. I didn't see his name tag. I then see you. You're looking at me smiling. You pick me up and then mom's fave comes into view. You say "this is our baby girl." And you kiss mom. You then say "welcome to the world princess. I'm your daddy. I'll protect you even if my life depended on it. I love you with all my heart already." And then that's when the flashback stops. I pass out. Then when I awake,I see you again then another flashback starts up. It's where you are bringing me to my new home. Mom gets out of the car with me. A bad smell hits my nose instantly. Then you laugh and say "that's the fresh smell of farm baby. Lookie,horsies. When you turn 18,allll these animals are yours. Horses,pigs, goats, everything" that's when the flashback ends and when I go to hug you,you start to vanish into thin air. "I love you so much baby girl. I love seeing how well you've grown. I watch over you everyday. Never forget that I'll be here to protect you". I rush over but by the time I get to you,it's too late. You're gone... That,is when I wake up. I miss you daddy. I wish you were still here. Mom says you're safe in a place where nobody can or will harm you. Mom taught me to swim. Everyday she'd talk about you saying "your daddy always wanted to teach you to swim. He tried one time but you wouldn't let go" she had tears in while smiling. "You know how you're learning math?" I nodded my head because I didn't want to talk. My front teeth were growing in at that time. "Well,your Daddy's favorite subject was math. He was dreaming of the day you would want him to help you." She laughed lightly. She then saw tears building up in my eyes. "I know baby I know. I miss him too" she sighed.
6 years later...
I still think about you daddy. I'm in middle School now. I know you're proud of how far I've come. I know you wish you were here. I was crying last night. I saw a picture of you. I broke down. I fell asleep crying. I try not crying,but you being gone still hurts. I sometimes feel as if something is around. I think it is you. I heard a voice in my head saying "don't cry baby. I'm alright" and then it went away. I wish I had something of yours to keep and wear. A hat,shirt,pants, anything at all. I need something to feel safe. Remember when I was afraid of the dark. I slept with the light on. I heard your voice telling me that you'll watch me the whole night and won't let anything harm me. I miss you so much. My heart hurts every time I think about you. Are you able to see me right now? Are you happy for me? Proud of me?
8 years later...
I'm in high school now dad. Your daughter is growing up. I'm getting good grades. I'm trying to follow my dreams. Be in military. Become something. Are you proud of me dad? I'm trying to do football. I know you would want me to be happy. Football makes me happy. I have this friend named Alyssa. I'm sure you've seen her if you're watching over me. Dad,she's just so beautiful and amazing. She's my best friend. She's always there for me. Makes me so so Happy. I love her to death and I'd do anything for her. I know that you would want me to have good friends. She's all I need really. Anyways, I know you'd want me to marry someone who's right for me. I know that you'll be there walking with me down the isle. I miss you so much dad. I try so hard not to be sad. I know you'd want me happy and not cry over you but it's hard. It's hard at times. My heart aches at the thought of you. I love you Dad. Forever and always. ❤️
