Hi,there's something that I've been meaning to tell you for a while now.
I love you.
I have always loved you.
I've never stopped.
I try to make you fall in love with me.
Doesn't work.
I just want you to fall for me.
So I can wrap you up in my arms.
Tell you how much i love you.
How much you mean to me.
How much you're worth.
How much I need you.
I want to hold you and never let go.
I know I cant have you.
I know that someone else is wrapped up around your heart.
I know that it's pretty much impossible for me to have you but i still want you to know how i feel.
I'm not trying to break up your relationship because I'm not like that.
I just want you to know my feelings.
I'm tired of hiding them.
I was once told to stop being scared and go for it.
But i cant.
Im afraid.
Afraid of feelings.
Afraid of rejection.
Afraid of losing you.
Someone once told me that I cant fly unless I fall.
I know what they mean.
But i know I won't be able to fly.
I've already fallen.
I'm still falling more and more.
I'm just waiting until I've reached the end of my endless trip.
I've fallen but I can't fly.
I'm afraid of what this might do to us because we have an amazing friendship that i really don't want to lose.
I really don't want to mess it up with my stupid feelings.
But at the same time...i don't want to be here watching you be in love with someone else.
I cant pretend to be happy for you anymore.
I'm happy that you're happy.
I'm just not happy for the fact that you're happy without me.
I want to be the reason for your happiness.
All i can ever think about is how that should be me holding your hand,making you laugh,kissing you,spoiling you with love,everything.
It should be me.
It breaks my heart whenever I see you cry or sad.
I want to be with you and make you happy.
You'll never have a sad day.
I would go all the way to you no matter what I'm doing just to try and make you happy.
