Imperfect (arrow based)

On my own

Oliver and I have done nothing. After our discussion and my wreck Oliver just held me. Then we eventually got up and went to lunch. We are now here, back at Oliver's. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

We have been watching superhero movies. We watched Batman and Spiderman.

"Superman is so much better than Batman." Oliver states.

"Batman is so much better than Superman. Batman doesn't have weaknesses. Also he's hot. Henry Cavill isn't as hot as Christian Bale." I say in response.

"Well you know who's hotter than Christian Bale?" Oliver says with a little smirk.

"Maybe Dylan O'Brien?" I say with a slight giggle.

Oliver looks at me.

"What?" I ask sarcastically.

"Nothing it's just your laugh I love it." He pulls me in and puts his lips on mine. When we kiss I feel the butterflies in my stomach. It's like his my first love. He's mine. Wait am I thinking this too far. Are we even dating? Oh goodness are we dating? I immediately pull away and look down.

"Did I do something?" Oliver asks in concern.

"No it's, just, I DON'T KNOW OLIVER!!!" The room went silent. He put his hand on my arm. I pull my arm away before he can even speak. I look at him and get off the couch. Grab my bag and leave.

  I ran out the door. I ran as fast as I could and guess that wasn't very far because I am still in Oliver's yard. I catch my breath and start to run again but before I start running I see that oliver is watching me leave. But why isn't he coming to me trying to get me to stay. Was I thinking too much? Am i rushing this. We meet not even two days ago. I am rushing this?

  I got to a couple houses down. DAMN IT!!!!! My phone is at Olivers. Guess I have to walk and shit. I have no clue where I even am. Oh thank the lord. I can see a airport taxi. I Flag him down and get in.

  I get home and go to my bedroom. I fell to the ground. No No I am not gonna do that. I am gonna do something to get my mind off of Oliver. Lets watch a show. I get up off the floor and go to the kitchen to get a bowl of chocolate cocoa crispies. I get comfy on the couch. Shoot I forgot to put on pajamas. Well gotta go do that.

Okay not even five seconds later i am in a oversize blue long sleeve with a pair of black booty shorts. It took me longer to make a cute messy bun.

Finally I can watch my boys. I watch some Supernatural and I hide under a blanket because there was a freakin killer unicorn. Like out of all the things they have on Supernatural a freakin killer unicorn scares me. Really, goodness i am a scaredy cat.

    After a couple episodes of Supernatural. I look at the clock and see that it is 1:10 am. I go to the kitchen and grab a water bottle and sleeping pills. I then go to the bathroom and brush my teeth. I get to my bed and grab my nook and start to look at my social media. Since I don't have my phone I have to use my nook. I catch up on some youtube and snapchat stories. I started thinking about Oliver again. Did I make a mistake? Should I have not gone to the bar? Should I have? Does Oliver like me like that? Oh god how am I gonna get my phone. I can't look at him. I will crack right there right in front of him. I can't do that. He will end up wrapping his arms around me. I then will cry and let him comfort me. God could that get any cheesier. I will let him bring it to me. I mean I don't remember where he lives anyway. He probably will find me. Ooh thats creepy. I think I should go to bed now. Well go night self. I really should stop talking to myself.