Imperfect (arrow based)

Last Lie

I got her some food and then we started talking about things. The entire time she was talking about electronics and technology. I could only make out a few things she said. I didn't dare intervene with her. Otherwise I am attacked by her words and sentences. I do ask her to clarify at certain points. It was once again about that phone that cost more than my apartment. I might end up getting her tah for Christmas. I mean it has to go on sale on black friday. Right? I can only assume. I wonder what I am gonna get Oliver. Oh then there is Dig. I don't even know that much about him. But I think I have something in mind. We will see. Felicity still going on about the phone. I mean it's cool and all but it's a phone. I get her to stop talking about the phone and now we are talking about Oliver and Barry.
"So you like him?" I ask her.
"Sorta. You know how he is always late." She pauses and I nod.
"He told me some words along the lines of if we want to go on a date that that guy won't be late." She says putting a strawberry in her mouth.
"You know you should date him and you can be my otp. Speaking of otp, Oliver and I are still?" I ask.
"Yes. Want one?" She asks reaching her hand out with the bowl in her hand.
"Already ate." I say.
"When's your birthday?" Felicity asks.
"Five days. I don't know if Oliver knows though. I keep hinting but I don't think he's getting it." I say. I grab my phone and starting looking at who has posted things. I look at the calendar and it has been 5 months since the crash. Tears fall down my face. I get up and run to the bathroom. I went slow enough that Felicity wouldn't suspect anything. I get to the bathroom, lock the door, I slide down the door, wrap my arms around my legs, and put my face down in between my arms.
I hear a couple knocks on the door. I look at the clock and see that I have been in here for 25 minutes.
"Lexi." I hear Felicity say.
"Go away. I.. I'm fine." I say. I hear her footsteps as she walks away. I pull myself together a little bit and just think about them. I am not crying anymore. But every couple minutes I fell a couple tears fall down my face. I look at the clock and it has been another half hour. I hear a couple more knocks.
"I told you I'm fine Felicity." I say.
"Lex." I perk up as I hear Oliver's voice say my name. Oliver waits a few seconds before he is about to say something. I reach up, unlock the door, open the door, scoot over, Oliver sits next to me, and I put my head on his shoulder.
"It's been 5 months since the crash." I say. I feel Oliver's arm wrap around my back.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." Oliver says.
"I tried and tried. I failed him. My mom and dad were home for the most part. But when they weren't and at school I would protect him. I was there when he needed me and when I needed him. I wasn't there for him when the plane went down. The last thing her heard was a lie. I told him everything would be okay and that this is like Captain America and we would make it out. We didn't. He...didn't. I lied to him. I should have died not him. He had so much to do with his life. He was one of the people who had his life planned. He was gonna go to college and finish it, have a family, and he was gonna be a grandfather, and most importantly he was gonna... be a uncle. He talked about being an uncle like his life depended on it. He wanted to be there for my kids. It all sounds cliche but that was him... that was who we were." I finish looking at Ollie as I wipe tears away.(irl as I write I am crying. Gotta be your character right)
"Lexi." Oliver starts then stops.
"Don't let me go. Ever." I say.
"Never." Oliver says. He doesn't show his emotions much but I could tell they were coming out. I didn't say anything more. We sat on the floor for a good half hour.
"Let's go home." Oliver says. I mumble okay and he gets up and reaches his arms up and helps me up. Then we walk out. I tell him to go to the car and then I find Felicity.
"Sorry about that. It's been 5 months since the crash and I fell apart. I pushed up away and for that I'm sorry." I say and when I finish I see her walk to me and wrap her arms around me. I do the same. I pull back.
"I am gonna go. But once again thank you and sorry." I say grabbing my things.
I get to the car and we leave. We don't talk much in the car. We get to his place and he opens the door for me. We get inside and Oliver makes popcorn and gets me one of his shirts. It's pretty early, 5:27 pm. We got situated and start watching Supernatural. I told him we can watch what ever but he insisted on Supernatural.