Naive

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A FEW WEEKS LATER

It's been a few weeks ever since Caleb and I been dating and we've been going strong. I was going over to his place today. So I got up and took a shower and put on black tights with a crop top shirt with flats. I went over to my bathroom because I started putting on makeup since Caleb said I look better with it on.

I made sure my hair looks nice, and then I took my keys and left the house and catch a taxi over to his house. About 25 minutes later, I walked straight inside the house. He usually left the door unlocked when he knew I was coming.

"Babe!" I yelled out.

"In here." I heard his voice echoing out of his room.

I walked up the stairs and over to his room and he was sitting down in his bed, watching television. I kicked off my flats and crawled on the bed over to him.

"Hey boo." He said wrapping his arms around me and engulfing my embrace into his before kissing me on the lips.

"Hey babe." I said trying to hide my smile.

"You look so good."

"I do?"

"Stop playing, you know you look good."

"Well, I can't disagree with you." I said.

He burst into laughter which caused me to laugh.

"You something else, you know that?"

"I ain't something else." I said rolling my eyes.

"C'mere." He said through gritted teeth, and he pulled me by my waist as I hovered over his body.

The kiss started off slow, I parted my lips as I let out a moan allowing him full access over me. This sending chills down my back and I felt butterflies forming in my stomach as I felt his hand go down my butt as he squeezed it.

I felt myself get wet as he flipped me over and I laid on my back.

"You ready?" He whispered in my ears which made me instantly weak in the knees.

I nodded my head not being able to form words out of my mouth. We've been dating for a few weeks and I felt like I didn't want to string him along for too long without pleasuring him. He then pulled his shirt over is head and tossed it on the floor.

He then started pulling down his pants and his boxers while I took off my crop top and slid off my black tights and my under wear.

He got off the bed and went over to a dresser and took a condom and wrapped it over himself. He then got back on the bed, and look at me for confirmation. I just simply nodded my head as my heart began to beat faster.

He parted my legs and then it took us about 5 minutes to look for the hole. After finding it, he thrust himself inside of me, and I could of swore that I felt my soul leave my body for a second. I arched my back as I gripped onto the sheets and let out a loud moan.

"Ugh!" I said as my eyes rolled to the back of my eyes as he continued to push himself inside of me.

About a few minutes, I felt my insides get hot and then he pulled out and laid on his back besides me trying to regain his breath.

I stared at the ceiling not knowing how to think or feel. I thought losing my virginity would feel more pleasurable and less painful. I thought it was going to be more romantic and last a little bit longer. I felt pain shooting through my thighs as I groaned in pain.

Caleb looked  at his watch on his arm, and he quickly got up and put on his pants.

"Go put your clothes on."

"Why?"

"I gotta go out and something." He said putting on his shirt and walking out the room.

I sighed and I struggled to stand on my legs, the pain was bearable but it just didn't feel good. I put on my black tights and put on my shirt and he left money on the table so I could be able to catch a taxi.

After getting home, I tried my best not to look out of place because if my mother and my brother found out what I did. I might as well be planning for my funeral.

Luckily, no one was home. So I went straight upstairs and hopped into a shower and I stayed in there till the water turned cold making sure that I was squeaky clean. After I got out, I put on some pajamas, my father's birthday was coming and It was this time of year that I dreaded because these were the moments where I missed my father the most.

My thoughts were disrupted as my phone began ringing obnoxiously. I quickly got my phone and I answered it without looking at the contacts.

"Hello?"

I heard sniffling and mumbling which made me sitting up on my bed.

"Hello?" I said repeating myself and then looking at my phone, and it was Lucas who was calling me.

"Asia." He said as I could hear his whimpers.

"Lucas, what's wrong?" I said genuinely being worried.

"Where are you?"

"Home, why?"

"Can you meet me at the park?"

"I'm leaving right now. Give me 5 minutes." I said not bothering to change out of my pajamas as I put on my FENTY slippers, and quickly leaving out the door.

I jogged over to the nearest park which was no more than 5 minutes away from my house. I walked in the field and I seen Lucas sitting on a bench with his head down. I rushed over to him and sat besides him as I rubbed his back.

"What's wrong?"

"My...My..." He said sniffling. "My dad passed." He sad raising his head up at me and I seen how his eyes was blood shot red. My heart instantly dropped down to the pit of my stomach because even though my father didn't pass away, It felt like he did because he was taken away from me when I was so young.

"I am so sorry." I said not knowing what to say.

He didn't say anything, he just rested his head on my shoulder as I continued to rub on his back to comfort him.

A few minutes past by and we stayed in the same position and he lifted up his head and looked at me.

"Asia."

"Yeah?" I said turning my head over to him.

"I love you."

My eyes widen and I didn't know what to say back to him. I didn't want to lie to him because I did love him as a friend, but did I really love him like that?

"I love you too." I said and he rested his head back on my shoulder as I looked up at the sky. I already knew that Jordan would be calling my phone any minute now.

"Lucas, let's start walking back. I know my brother is going to start getting worried."

He nodded his head as he got up and I held his hand and squeezed it to show my sympathy. We walked home in silent and since I didn't live far from the park, I was already in front of my house.

"Bye Lucas." I said giving him a hug. I looked him straight in his eyes, "If you need anything, don't hesitant to tell me. You hear me?"

"Yeah, I hear you." He said and I gave him a kiss on the cheek before walking back into my house.