Naive

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I woke up to the sounding of beeping and people talking as if they were in a panic. I woke up and looked up at the ceilings and saw the slow motion of the fan and then I looked over to my side and saw Mia on the other bed and Ella besides Mia on a bed as well.

I was the first one awake as Ella and Mia were still asleep. My body was in discomfort as my head started to throb. I saw a nurse who was maintaining the machine that was besides Ella and when she looked over at me, she quickly rushed over to me.

"How are you feeling?" She told me.

"Everything hurts." I managed to tell her.

"The doctor will be here any moment, do you remember what happened?"

"I just remember getting into a car crash."

"An anonymous person was walking down the street and saw the car on fire and pulled you and your friends out. You are lucky because seconds after the person pulled you out, the car exploded."

"Wow. What about the other car that crashed us?"

"Police said that no one was in there, so it was probably a hit and run."

"Is any of my family here?"

"Yes, they are waiting outside the room but the doctor wants to see you first."

I nodded my head and she went over and continue to tend to Ella and Mia. A few moments later, the doctor walked in the room and started asking me question about how I felt. After answering all the questions, he told me that I lost the baby due to the intensity of the crash and I instantly placed both hands to my tummy and it was flat. I knew the doctor was telling the truth because even though I was going on 3 months, my stomach had a little pudge.

I instantly covered my face with my hand and started crying. Even though I knew I was too young to be pregnant, I was getting excited to have a child of my own and to know that it was gone, I felt alone in the world and the only thing that would have given me true love besides my family was gone.

"I am sorry for your loss. The trauma of the accident was too much for the developing fetus."

I nodded my head. "I understand, I just wished this didn't happen that's all."

Ella and Mia woke up in the process of the doctor diagnosing me, and he also said the same thing to the both of them.

Mia's father, both Ella's parents and my mom, Jordan and Lucas all piled in the room questioning us about what's been happening and thanking god that we are all okay. The doctor told them the news and my mom dropped to the floor crying. Lucas was the only one who was sitting alone and not saying anything, but he looked like he a lot to say in his mind.

"So you saying a random car just came and crashed you guys, and the person left untouched?" Jordan asked us.

"I don't even know, like literally a minute before we crashed Asia told me that she thinks somebody was following us, so I took a left and the car did too and then next thing you know they crashed into us." Mia said looking at nothing particular ask if she was reliving the moment that happened not too long ago.

After the parents leaving and waiting outside, Lucas was the only one left and he got up from his seat and walked over to me.

I could see the tears in his eyes once he saw the condition I was in. I haven't said a word ever since I found out that I lost the baby.

"Are you okay?" He asked me.

The waterworks started and I was full on crying. "I-I-I lost the b-b-baby." I said trying to wipe the many tears that was flowing down my face.

"I'm sorry you had to go through this." He said as he kissed on my hair and laid his head against my chest and held me tight allowing me to cry.

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Finally arriving home, I walked straight to my room not saying anything to anybody. I just wanted to be left alone and went straight to sleep.

In the morning, I woke up and I honestly didn't want to go to school because I wasn't in the mood to put on my fake smile and act like nothing was wrong.

I heard the door open and my mother walked in the room and sat on the edge of the bed examining me.

"How you been holding up sweetheart?"

"I don't even know how to feel."

"I knew you weren't ready for the baby, but I wish this didn't happen to you."

"I really don't want to talk about that."

"I understand. You don't have to go to school today."

"Thanks mom for everything."

She kissed my forehead. "I love you baby girl." She said and got up and left the room.

As much as I wanted to continue to sleep my life away, I just got up and took care of my hygiene and went downstairs as saw Jordan downstairs on his phone.

"Hey what you doing here?" I said giving him a genuine smile, happy because he was here and I missed him.

I went over and sat besides him. "I just watched to make sure you was straight."

"I'm not like great, but I feel better than how I did yesterday."

"I am so sorry and I want you to know that I'm always here for you. Even though I always get mad at the things you do, just know it's for your own good."

"I know. I know."

"Gimme a hug girl."

I leaned over to him, and gave him a tight hug.

He gave me a kiss on my forehead. "I love you."

"I love you too, big head."

"You hungry?"

"Yes, I'm starving."

"Mom made some food." He said getting up and he came over to me and handed me food.

"Thanks Jor Jor."

I told him while stuffing my face with food.

"I'm going to let you slide with that only once."

After finish eating, I put the dish into the dishwasher and me and Jordan laid up together just watching televisions.

About a few hours later, Jordan left to handle some "business" and after finishing all my homework and facetiming Lucas, I was bored out of my mind. So I scrolled through social media and I seen a text pop in front of my screen.

Caleb: Can we meet up? I really want to talk to you.

Before I left Caleb's wife house, I got her number. So I quickly called her number and she picked it up.

Rosie: Hello?

Me: Hi it's Asia, Caleb just texted me and asked to meet up with me. What should I do?

Rosie: As much as I hate him, I think you should. Just to have some closure.

I agreed with her, I felt like I should also tell him about the loss of the baby.

Me: Alright thank you.

I hung up the phone, and as much as I tried to put Caleb in the back of my head, the feelings I had for him would outweigh anything. But I didn't want to to hurt Lucas' feelings by having feelings for someone else so I didn't know what to do.

Me: Alright Caleb, we can meet up.