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Chapter 1

Olivia's POV

The razor was held tightly to my wrist. It had been a full ten days of no cutting but my parents abusive words had really gotten to me. I just wanted to slice my skin open and let the stress and pain flow out....but then he came to mind.

Tay.

I gulped and grabbed my phone. I clicked vine and my feed came up. Taylor Caniff had had posted a new vine. It started with his beautiful smile and by the end of it he was humping an 'All' detergent bottle. I couldn't help but smile and looked back at the razor. I shook my head. I couldn't do it. I had to keep fighting. For him.

I put the razor back in my secret hiding spot and resumed to lay in my bed and look through Tays vine.

After vine I went to my magcon boys fan page. Another small smile appeared on my face once I saw I now had 1000 followers.

I had promised my followers and myself that if I hit 1k I would DM the boys my story.

Ten minutes later I was staring at what I had just written. I was only gonna say a few words of how they saved my life but looking at it now it was so long. I sent it anyway. I knew there was no way any of them would see this but it was worth a try.

I put my phone on the charger and took out my diary. I wrote down everything I had just sent to the boys.

"My names Olivia Grayson and I suffer from self harm, insomnia,paranoia, depression, anxiety, an eating disorder and suicidal thoughts. I am currently in 12th grade and have been suffering since 5th grade. I get bullied a lot at school and at home I'm mostly ignored. I'm the oldest of 5 and my parents are really strict and the pressure for good grades really got to me. Beginning of high school I was failing all my classes and I kinda just gave up. In the past month I've failed 3 suicide attempts. My fourth attempt was to be on March 1 2014. Blood was pouring down the drain because I had cut too deep and I had a bottle of pills in my hand. I decided say goodbye on my secret account on Instagram when one of my followers said to look up 'Cameron Dallas'. I did as she told and ended up getting a vine. At the first vine I saw I started laughing and I guess you could say that was unusual for me because I haven't laughed or even smiled in so long. That night I did nothing but watch all of your vines and moved on to the other boys too. I found one picture in which it had one of Your old tweets saying '3 years ago today I tried to take my own life'. This really got to me because you had survived and now your an inspiration to many and now me to keep going because life is worth living. I want to thank you and all the other boys..especially Tay..for saving my life. Your the reason I wake up every morning and endure the day because I know someday all this suffering will come to an end. Thank you angel~@magcon_boys_saved_me.

I stared at the page for awhile. A small tear rolled down my cheek and landed on 'Tays' name.

I quickly wiped it away and cursed at myself. Ever since I had learned about the boys it was Taylor who had really stuck out to me. I felt a really deep and emotional connection to him though it was Cameron's words that saved me. Every time I hear Tays name or even thought of him, tears would well up in my eyes until I started sobbing uncontrollably. I loved him so much. But what really hurt is that I was just another fan to him and he would never know I existed.

I cant even call him by his full name of Taylor. He would always be to me Tay. My angel in bandanas. The thought brought a smile to my face which has been happening a lot since the boys came into my life.

A few more tears rolled down my cheek and I brushed them away and rubbed my dark brown eyes. Looking in the mirror they had turned red and I sighed. I quickly fixed my wavy brown hair into a messy ponytail and grabbed my phone again.

My parents would never in a million years to take me to a concert, no matter who's it was. So the only way to go would be to sneak out.

I pulled up when magcon would be coming to Virginia and wrote it down. A plan was already starting to form in my head and traced a few fingers over my faded scars.

"Tay..." I mumbled softly.

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