You know, I really hate myself
Being trapped in a movie called life
And I kinda hate the story line of mine
I'm trying my best to shoot my movie well
But damn, I just hate myself way too much.
Finding myself at the a place
In which people are usually happy
But I'm standing here
With the same darkness inside of me
Being the only sad person around.
I see people smiling, talking and drinking
And sometimes I'm smiling, too.
Until I realize I'm not part of their movie
Until I realize I don't have friends to smile, talk or drink with.
Until I realize I have nobody, but me.
The world is just another name for despair
And we play this movie on replay
And when you look closely
You can find anxiety in people's joy
Unhappiness in people's happiness
Unendless Hate in people's love
In the night other people look even happier
Because they know exactly where they belong to
While I'm carelessly walking around at the same old place
Not sure to where my way is bringing me
Finding myself saying "Cut" before I'm falling asleep.
Sometimes I'm watching my own movie
And I see myself like a REFLECTION in the mirror
To see what I could have done better
But with every second I'm just realizing how much I'm hating myself.
Wishing I'd be able to love myself for once.
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the realms of day and night. || bts poetry
PoetryWattpad says it's not poetry, but to me it's poetry, so enjoy my poetry book guys❤ . Sometimes I write weird stuff in my instagram captions and think they are so artistic af they have to be saved else where again.
