Chapter 35 " Opening my eyes."

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I'm finally allowed to go home, Yes, I still feel very weak but at least I have Vic with me. Everyone has been treating me way to gently lately, like i'm a box that says fragile in big bold letters.

I want everything to go back to normal, really I do. What's wrong with me? Why does everyone treat me with so much care? I don't see what they see at all. According to Oli I look like a fucking skeleton, why can't I see what everyone says? What even is normal?

I'm suppose to be resting in bed, instead I'm looking at myself in the bathroom mirror, I've been here for hours. Oli's resting like he's suppose to, he does have a bullet wound healing after all.

I pick up one of my diamond tiaras and throw it as hard as I can at the mirror as it shatters to pieces. I'm always trying to look perfect, but what is perfect? Who needs a mirror when it just judges you, all it does is judge, judge, judge, judge.. I think i'm going insane.

Vic walks up to me cautiously. " Kellin?" He asks like i'm some unowned animal roaming the streets.

I breathe heavily feeling dizzy like I'm going to pass out, and through the shattered pieces, for the first time I see my ribcage, my inverted cheeks, my arms you can wrap your hand around, my tiny waist, and my huge thigh gap, my more than flat stomach, everything, I see everything, even my visible collar bone, I look like death.

I collapsed into Vic's muscular healthy arms, then wake up in my comfy bed, with Vic cuddling close to me.

" Kellin, I'm serious, you need to get food and water into your body, you're starving yourself." Vic says on the verge of tears.

A few tears escape my eyes. " I..I know."

" W.. what?" Vic whispers.

" I.. the mirror, I.." I can't think of anything to say.

Vic kisses me deeply then pulls away. " I made you dinner."

" Thanks?" I say barely audible.

Vic just hums in response. " I'll go bring it to you."

When Vic leaves, Oli enters the room and I frown.

" You're suppose to be resting." I say to him like he's some sort of child.

" So were you when you passed out again." He calls me out with a smirk and sits on the edge of the bed. " You saw it, didn't you?"

" Saw what?" I play dumb.

He sighs. " Come on."

I roll my eyes. " That I'm basically a walking skeleton? Yeah, I guess I'm lucky I'm not dead yet."

" Don't say yet." He says concerned.

" We all die at some point." I say taking a sip of my water.

He changes the subject. " So um, How are you doing?"

" How are you doing? You're the one who got shot." I say.

He laughs shaking his head. " I'm fine."

" And you need rest." I pout.

" With you?" He jokes.

" Oli, You know about Vic and I." I mumble avoiding eye contact.

" It was a joke, you need to calm down." He laughs.

" Didn't seem like a joke the other night." I say to myself.

" Hm?" He raises his eyebrows.

" Can you just like, go away?" I say nicely.

He frowns. " Alright tell me what's on your mind."

" Many things that I'd rather not say."

" Tell me who it is, I'll put them in their place." He clenches his fists.

" You've done enough, really, it's fine."

" I practically took a bullet for you." He jokes.

"Not funny, now shoo."

He shakes his head. " Since when do you tell me what to do?"

" Fine, I'll tell you what I've been thinking for the most of my screwed up life." I sigh.

He furrows his eyebrows together. " Spit it out."

" Well, It involves you, and how you've friend zoned me for years, and suddenly want me when Vic walks into my life, hell Oli, I thought you were straight for years and all of the sudden you pull this gay shit on me?"

He stays silent avoiding eye contact.

" I get it, we're best friends, we don't want to mess that up, but do you know how many times I've kissed you as a joke and actually felt a shameful spark?!"

He stays silent.

" Do you?!" I shout.

He doesn't respond and latches his lips onto mine.

A/N: TO BE CONTINUED.

Okay we need more kellic what is happening lmao.
I also have a new story out, it's a collab fic.
THANKS SO MUCH FOR 4 FUCKING K READS

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