Jealous | Dan Howell

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"How could you do such a thing?" I yell as soon as he pops up on the screen, "I can't believe you and Phil left without waking us!"

"We didn't want to leave without telling you and Maiara, trust me. But we didn't have any other choice." He tried to calm me.

"There's always a choice!"

"If we would have woke you up, telling you that we were leaving, what would you have done?"

"I would've told you to stay!" I shake my head, feeling tears coming on, "I can't believe you did this."

"Phil and I couldn't have stayed, no matter how much you wanted us to. We have meetings and important things to do, and so do you and Maiara. You can't just keep pushing it all back."

I take a deep breath. I suppose he's right.

"Yeah...I guess that's true. I'm just...upset that you're gone."

He sighs and looks down, "I feel bad for saying this, but I couldn't even look at you when I left."

I really need to get off the phone and do some work to get my mind off of everything.

"I understand. ... Listen, Dan, I really need to go."

"Wait, Rachel, are you mad at me? I'm really sorry-"

"-No, I'm not mad," I shake my head, "I just need to do a few things."

"Oh, okay...I love you."

"I love you, too." I say with a sigh, "I'll talk to you later, okay?"

"Alright." He gives a small wave before I end the call.

I take a deep breath...
...Am I really going to do this?

I dial my talent agent's number. I hope
this doesn't break her heart. We've grown so close to each other.

She answers and I want to hang up immediately, but I don't. I follow through.

"Hey, Meredith. I just want to let you know that...I'm done with acting."

"I don't think I heard you correctly. Did you say you were 'done' with your career? Miss Alice-"

"-I know, I seem crazy for wanting to give this up, especially when there's a movie coming up starring Orlando Bloom that I have chance of being in. But, I've made up my mind."

I hear her sigh, "Rachel, I know you're saying this now, but you might change your mind later. I'll give you a few weeks to make absolute sure."

"I need you to cancel all of my upcoming meetings, as well."

"What is going on? Are you alright?"

"Yes, I'm fine. Thank you, Meredith. For everything that you've done for me. I'll call you soon."

I hang up without giving her a chance of saying goodbye, and turn around.

I nearly jump out of my skin when I see Maiara standing there.

"Jesus, you scared me-"

"-What did you just do?" She interrupts.

"I just gave up on my acting career."