Lost My Way

Love, or Friendship?

It's been awhile, yeah?

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Now that really is a thought.

Love, or friendship.

Ever since the sudden upcoming of my love life and the fact that my mind has no more tests to think of at night, this decision has come up. The age where I'm at right now... I don't think it really matters. We're young, we're naive, we're hardcore fighters in what we believe in. But somehow, I'm always preparing myself for this--this... This situation. I fall in love easily, through sisterhood or when becoming a girlfriend, so when a person I dearly care for leaves me or is suddenly ripped away, I will try to be fine during the day. During the night, I choke down my sobs and my dreams are filled with "when worse comes to worse." 

Let's analyze this, however: love, or friendship?

Starting with friendship, you've obviously had a long time with your friends and they know you better. You've been there for them, they've been there for you. You can't let those bonds dissolve in a snap, in a blink of an eye. And whenever you break up with someone, you know that your friendship is strong enough for them to be so close to beating up the guy you broke up with.

But with love... Love is a new emotion. Well, no, but loving your significant other. That's what I mean. You've heard the expression "blinded by love"? There you go, that's what you are. Your emotions and reactions towards other people will most likely change, and that's what I... I live in fear of doing. But, you people that aren't in a relationship, you have to get that even if your friend has been in a relationship before, this is a new person, a whole new "world" to explore in terms of relationship. 

Either way, you're going to change. And you're going to end up hurting someone.

I will never hurt anyone, not even if I break up with him, or someone. I won't lash out in anger and physically slap them. My friends will hopefully not because I ask them to.

All I will do is curl up in a ball, cry, get my shit together, and move on, because there are other things to worry about in life.

But my answer?

That would be ____________.

Good night :)