Second Chance

Chapter 22: ...

"..."

Have you ever had that moment when you spaced out then you came back on Earth and your head just blanked out... You even forgot what you were thinking about...

Yeah, I think that what I just did.

I think I'm going nuts. I've been talking to myself lately. Borderline dangerous moment of going crazy. I think I should pay Dr. Lance a visit. Things have been hectic lately. I haven't gone to meet him these days. Of course, Abby still checks up on me if I have taken my medicine properly or not. The doctors even made sure that my medication are compatible with my current conditions.

Shit. These days, I keep feeling like I'm losing myself.

I've told Ryan everything. He didn't say anything afterwards, though then he disappeared for a while.

Richard told me that he's been playing hooky at work so Abby is drilling him to finish his work. Somehow, I can imagine that. Although, that doesn't mean I believe Richard. I mean, I just revealed an unimaginable truth.

At first, I wondered if he thought I am crazy. Then, I found out, he's really busy.

I started going back to school. It was halfway through the week that he came back and started getting clingy and touchy-feely with me. At first, I didn't pay any mind of it at first but then, the touching went to a different level.

He... He...

Ugh!

Fuck.

Even though it's my head, I'm still going to pretend to smoothly change the topic.

Speaking about school, Do-Hyun is back from his vacation. It seems that his trip was prolonged and that's why I didn't see him for so long. As usual, he accompanies me to school. Somehow, with him around, I feel safer but I do notice that he has been watching our distance.

It's not the same like before anymore. I don't know how to address it so I never brought it up. I complained to Ryan and he said that the world only cares about appearances. Our statuses demand some distance and I should watch it. I guess I have to accept it.

Another thing about school, it seems that I don't have to attend the rest of the class anymore.

Well, not that I have been attending it properly though.

I keep skipping because I keep getting admitted to the hospital.

It seems that there's a system school is that when there are excellent students, they would no longer constrict the students. I mean, they will let the students graduate without taking the school final exam. It seems that this rarely occurs because their standard of excellent students are practically meant for geniuses.

Uh... yeah, so I got exempted from coming. I am not the only one though.

It seems Abby and Elaine also got exempted but among the three of us, only Elaine is going to college.

When I asked Abby, she said that she's planning to do everything she can. Studying constricts her too much and that she sold her freedom. It seems that she has free-reign until she's 21 and have to marry Ean then. She even told me that she's going to 'disappear' from the high society during this time of freedom of hers.

I did not understand that girl but I bet she will do as she said. I guess Ean has one problematic fiancée.

As for me, I am going to straightaway proceed with the project I have talked to father about. I have yet to confirm whether I will be continuing my studies. Father said he would arrange someone to teach me childcare management.