Second Chance

Extra: Luke

"Luke"

My days has gotten hazier.

My eyes are blurry and I'm shaking. Withdrawal symptoms. I need more.

I staggered out of the club's private room. My hands are shaking. My feets a unsteady yet it does not stop. My minds are begging for one thing and one thing only.

I knew I shouldn't have gotten this far. I knew I shouldn't accept their temptations. I knew this is a mistake I will die for but I can't stop anymore.

Please, someone save me.

"Young child, do you need help?"

The sound of a low steady voice that sends shiver down my spine stops my movement.

I turn slowly to face the owner of the voice.

It is a man in a dark grey trenchcoat. A distasteful colour and the person wearing it would appear gloomy and unattractive. However, the colour doesn't engulf the man's presence but enhance it. He looks like he doesn't belong in this world.

He looks like someone that is untouchable.

I flinch when he tries to touch me. Afraid that the me in this state would soil him.

The hands that he reach out pauses for a moment before gently holding up my chin. His eyes appear a trace of sadness. I somehow feel a sense of familiarity from him.

This man, he does not look menacing but there's a solemn air around him. Yet, I feel comfortable being near him.

"Child, if given the chance, what would you do?"

His question is vague but I feel like I know what is it that he's truly asking me.

I turn away in hope to conceal the pain in my eyes. His fingers that is on my chin moves away in a smooth and slow motion.

I subconsciously turn to face him. His eyes reveal a deep profound feeling.

"If I were to redo everything, I would probably end up here again. Every course of action taken is necessary. If I change one bit, I might not meet her or them. All of our experiences won't be the same.

If I was given chance to restart, I rather reborn in a new family,"

I stare at him fixedly without blinking even though my eyes has started to sting.

"Would you give up this one for a new one?" His low voice spoke in a steady pace and it felt as if a jolt went through my body.

I smile wryly, "So be it,"

I continue staring.

My stinging eyes hurts and I blink unconciously.

As I blink my eyes I felt my hazy thought is becoming clearer. I wonder what I was doing earlier? It felt odd. Like I have forgotten something.

Of course, my body won't let me forget. It craves for it.

I need it.

I want more.

I keep on walking. Even though I am staggering but my pace is steady. Every step I take, I carefully place the soles of my feet on to the ground. I moving forward and I know where to go.

I feel as if the there are clouds in my mind. Something is telling me to stop moving forward but I can't stop. The room is so close. Just a few step and I would reach there.

"Why, if it isn't the pretty boy who is Gunner's friend,"

I look up towards the voice. Noticing that he just walked out of the room. I know he is exactly the one I am looking for.

I lunged toward him while staggering. One buff guy tried to stop me but that man gives him a stare that made him pauses his action.

Since there is no obstacle, I reached him in no time. I grab his shirt in order to cling to him. 

I pant heavily as I could barely let out my voice.

"Give...me... I'll pay as... much as you want,"

The man seems to be amused by me and looked at the other guys that are with him.

"You see this look? The pure greediness and selfishness of someone who love no one but themselves. Not even the world can save them now," His voice contains malice and pure amusement toward my state.

I would have gotten angry but right now I know, he's the only one that can give me the pure bliss I crave for.

"Give... me. Ugh," The man kicked me in my stomach and caused me to topple backwards.

I didn't have the strength to balance myself so I fell down easily.

The man crouches down and grab a fist full of my hair. He tugged it upward so I'll look straight at his face. He smile menacingly and I could even sense disgust from his eyes. I could do nothing but stare at him as he hasn't let go of my hair.

The man suddenly gives a smile after staring at my face for so long then he start glancing down my body like he's screening me out. It felt weird to be stared by him but I just want the thing that he has so I don't care about his look.

Suddenly, he turn to look at me and as if something disgust him, he frowns. He toss my head away and without any strength to stop the inertia, I could feel the impact of the wall against the back of my head.

He stands up, giving me a full view of his height from the floor.

"Tch, and here I thought I could play with him. He's too far gone now," The man clicked his tongue and his face shows an extreme look of disgust.

He turn to look at the guy behind him and spoke some word. The guy hand action is blocked by his body so I couldn't see what he's doing. The only thing I saw is that guy is passing something to the man.

That man turned to me and smirk. He toss it to my face and said, "Have fun,"

Then he walks away and all the other guys follows him. I look at his retreating back before I turn to look at the thing he tossed to me. I faintly smile.

Finally.

It doesn't take long before the effect kicks in. I smile as my mind becomes calmer and peaceful. Everything appears glowing.

I walk to the bustling noise while swaying from left to right. I followed the motion of others as they grinds and swing their hips. The smile on my lips never fades away.

I drink whatever someone passes to me. I cling to whoever came close to me and happily moves to how they would like me to.

I couldn't tell how long the time has passed. I walk happily without care to the world. I stumble from time to time but it was funny so I laugh.

I feel like I'm on cloud nine.

I keep on walking aimlessly. Finding the silly things around me so I laugh continuously. I don't know where I am but everything is fun. It doesn't matter where I am at as long as I can be happy.

Nothing blocks my way. I walk carelessly.

At least until I bumped into an obstacle. I scold and yell.

Nothing can stop me.

Suddenly I can feel restriction on the hand I was swinging. I glare at whoever stopping me and that's when I see him.

His deep eyes like the ocean. It engulfs me and tries to eat me alive.

I could see his lips moving but I can't hear him. He seems angry but not at me. It's so funny that I laugh at his face.

I struggle to break free but he keep on talking to me. Though, all I hear is buzzing noise. My body seems to become more feeble as time pass. He is holding both of my hands and shaking me. His mouth is moving but what is he saying?

Oh, I don't care.

He can't hurt me anymore. There's nothing left here for me.

Regrets? What are those? Can you eat it?

I made my choice.

And that's when my world goes dark.

Goodbye, Ryan.