50 Shades Without You

Chapter 12

TRIGGER WARNING: rape/sexual assult

Ella's P.O.V

Getting home was like being snapped back into reality. Back to our busy lives. "I already miss it" I groan as I throw myself on the bed. "Question." Jack said as he sat next to me. "Yes?" I looked up. "Is it weird to invite Sammy to the wedding?" He thinks for a moment. "Weird? Yeah. But I think we should. He was one of our best friends" I shrug. He nods and glances at his phone. "Are you going to invite your mom..." Jack mumbled. Electricity shot through me. Was I? I guess I should give you some background on my parents.. finally. 

I had a pretty normal childhood until I was 13. That is when my dad passed away from lung cancer. He didn't smoke or anything, it just ran in his family. After that my mom started hooking up with random guys that she'd meet at bars or online. One night, after her and some new guy had done the dirty, he snuck into my room. I was only 14. He woke me up saying "This'll feel good" before shoving his hand down my shorts. When I screamed he hit me, if I cried he'd choke me. My mother walked in and all she said was "He was just curious Ella, let him do what he wants". When it finally ended I didn't know who to go to. My mom didn't care, my dad was gone, I didn't have any real friends. And my mom continued to let them, in and out of my room almost every night. 

At 15 I ran away, but got brought back by the cops. I tried to tell them what was going on, they just ignored it and called me delusional. It continued a few more months until my mom got caught with coke and was taken to jail, and I was sent to live with my dad's sister, Kathy. Eventually I graduated and moved to L.A. obviously. My mom didn't get out until last year. I guess it never really gave me time to grieve my father. 

I finally scoffed, "That whore can rot in hell" and shook my head. Jack knew she was abusive, but he didn't know that she let men rape me. I don't know if I'll ever tell anyone. He nodded again and pulled me close, cuddling into his chest. "I love you baby" He whispered and kissed my cheek. "I love you Gilinsky" I smile and grab his face, kissing his lips. Everything is going smoothly. I think he saw how lost in thought I was because he rubbed his thumb over my face, catching my attention. "Hey, do you need to talk about something?" He smiled a little with concern. 

"No, no. I'm good" I smile and kiss his cheek. He nods. "We have a photoshoot tomorrow" He spreads himself out. "I think we should just go in there completely naked" I say. He goofily smiles at me and says "Yeah? That'd be a fashion statement" before ripping off his shirt. "Oh you're starting now?" I giggle. He chuckles in response. "Tasha just had Natalia!" I jump up when I see the message pop up on my phone. "Really?" Jack sits up. I nod and get up, sliding on some shoes. Jack puts his shirt on and his shoes before we leave. 

"Oh my god" I cup my face when I see little Natalia all wrapped up as Natasha holds her. Nate is smiling with Alex on his lap. "Why didn't you name her Alex" Alex whispers. We all laugh a little. "She's so pretty" I coo. "Here" She hands her to me. I look up at Jack and he's staring right back at me. "I think we should take her and run" I tell him, smiling. "How are they at two already" He shakes his head. "Dad I'm hungry" Alex groaned. "Ok, ok. Let's go get some food" Nate chuckles, holding Alex's hand as they walk out. "I love them so much" Natasha sighs. "When are you dumbasses gonna have a baby" She laughs. We both look up then at eachother. "One day" I chuckle a little. 

"I got here as soon as I c-" Sammy rushed in. "Hey" he said quietly. "Hi" I smile awkwardly. Sammy and I haven't been talking much recently. "Do you want to hold her" I ask. He nods and I hand her over. Jack wraps his arm around my shoulders. Nate and Alex come back soon. "Congrats, by the way" Sammy says as he hands Natalia back to Tasha. She smiles. "Hey Ella?" Nate squints a little at me. "Yes?" I laugh. "What's that on your hand" He begins to smile. Shit, I forgot they didn't know. I look at Jack as he starts to smile too. "No! You guys aren't! Omg!" Natasha practically yells. Sammy looks shocked. "Well, yeah" I bite my lip as I smile. "Why didn't you tell me?" Tasha shakes her head. "We were just gonna kinda announce it when everyone was together." Jack laughs. "Congrats!" Nate smiles and hugs us both. "Thanks" I smile.

"Yeah- um congrats" Sammy weakly smiled. "Thanks Sammy" I hug him. "He's one lucky guy" He whispers and smiles. There was an awkward silence for a moment before Sam cleared his throat and said he should go. "Do you guys plan on having kids?" Tasha asked. "Yeah, of course, one day" Jack nodded. Things were happening so quickly, but I'm older now and I think I'm ready for all of this. 

(the next morning)

"Wake up baby" I yelled as I jumped on Jack's waist. "Shh" He mumbled. "C'mon, let's go get coffee and visit Johnson" I lean down to kiss him. He pecks my lips and rolls himself on top. "Hm, that can wait" He says in his morning voice as he kisses my neck. "Babe, please" I giggle. He smiles at my use of pet names. "Okay princess" He smirks, kissing me one more time, and getting up. We quickly get ready and get our starbucks before heading over to Ceilia and Johnson's house. "Goodmorning" I smile as Ceilia opens the door. "Hey" She smiles, taking Johnson and her own drinks. 

"G! Heard you put a ring on it!" Johnson yells as they do the weird bro hug thing. "Finally" Ceilia adds and I laugh. "Who's going?" Johnson asks. "Our friends, Jack's family, my aunt and cousins" I list off some people. "Also, when are we hitting the studio?" J nudged. "Soon, after the movie comes out" Gilinsky laughed. "Aye, Nate talked to me the other day about us maybe running some deals, errands n stuff" Jack mentions. "I'd be down" Johnson agreed. We hung out for a bit longer before Jack and I had to leave to the shoot.

"You looked great" Jack kisses me as we leaves. "So did you" I smile. "I can't believe the movie comes out in just a few months" Jack grabs my hand as we head toward our car. A few paps started to surround us. "Hey guys, we heard you were in Paris?" One shouted. "Yeah, we were" Jack responds. I cover my face for a moment as they snap pictures and ask questions. I quickly throw it down when I notice its my left hand and my ring is sitting on it. "What's that on your hand Ella" Another asks. "Hm? Nothing, a ring" I shrug. "Uh huh, alright, see you guys later" One says as they leave, us getting in our car. Jack chuckles.

As soon as we got home the picture was already on twitter. "I think we should just confront it" Jack shrugged. "Yeah, me too" I nod. "Come here" I motion him toward me and prepare to take a picture. I grab is face with my left hand, showing off my ring. I kiss him as he smiles. I post it on twitter with the caption 'fiance ;)' and was automatically attacked with 'omg this isnt real' and 'holy shit congrats'. I smiled at the positive response. "We're so fucking cute" He smiled and leaned down to kiss me again.