50 Shades Without You

Chapter 44

Ella's P.O.V

Olivia turned one two weeks later. It was possibly the cutest thing in the whole world. She didn't know what was going on other than all her family was there and she got cake. She shoved it in her face happily. "Yum!" She yelled out. "You are a mess" I laugh as she flings the cake around. 

About three months later we anxiously waited for a pregnancy test to tell us wether or not we were having another kid. I sat, tapping my foot on the side of the bathtub. Jack stands over the counter. I pick up the test after a minute, Jack waiting for my expression to change. I shake my head. He sighs loudly with dissapointment. "I- I can't believe were having another baby" A smile creeps on my face. "Holy fuck, Ella. Are you serious?" He turns toward me as I hop up. "Yup" I yell, holding him tight and wrapping my arms around his torso. 

Liv comes walking in, Sammy behind her. "Why are we yelling?" He asks. "Ellas pregnant" Jack smiles. "We're having another baby!" Sammy yells and hugs us. "Baby!" Olivia joins in. We all chuckle and Jack picks her up. "You're gonna be a sister" Jack squeezes her. 

To say I was happy- incorrect. I was so fucking happy. I loved my family so much. Jack kissed me sweetly. We called an immediate family meeting and everyone came over. I watched everyone's facial expression carefully. Everyone seemed happy. Shawn seemed happy but also disappointed. Weirdly? I called Harrison, Victor, and Silvia right after. They were all excited. Silvia was a bit uncomfortable, but she knew we were never going to be a thing.

I did a few Netflix small roles before I started showing. Jack and Jack went on tour for a few months. I was okay with it though. I came to the shows in California, and it was toward the beginning of my pregnancy so it wasn't bad. Except this one day. 

I was throwing up and dizzy. I couldn't even get up from the bathroom floor. I called Sammy and Shawn, I knew they'd come. Sammy took Liv to the living room and played with her. She loved Sam. Shawn sat with me for an hour, holding my hair and bringing me ginger ale. "God, I love you Shawn" I mumbled as I broke away from the toilet.

"I love you too" He chuckles. "You are my favorite person right now" I take a sip of the ginger ale. "You're always my favorite person" He tells me. "Are you.. are you sad I'm having another baby?" I ask, looking up at him. "Of course not. Part of me wishes it was my baby but I love seeing you happy. Even with Jack" He smiles. "Fuck, stop being so good" I mumble. 

When Jack did get home from tour we spent almost all of our time together. I loved this man so much. Liv was getting so big. She was starting to form sentences. "Hi Mamma" She wraps her little arms around my leg. "Hi Liv" I smile. "Up?" She opens her arms. I look toward Jack and he chuckles. He picks her up then hands her to me. By the 4th month I couldn't bend down very well, so Jack picked her up for me. I was so genuinely happy for once. Content to the fullest extent. Nothing else mattered than my babies, my husband, and my friends. After everything, this was my life. And I was the Ella Gilinsky, not Sabrina Perez, not a stripper. I was a mom and in love. So in love with my life. 

(SHOULD I CONTINUE??? IDK IDK ????? FUCK I LOVE THESE CHARACTERS SO MUCH IDK WHAT TO DO))))