adopted by josh dun | j.w.d

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"hey guys

its meee
lol
so
i wrote these books at a v young age when i had SHIT mental health and i was in my emo phase
ive unstanned panic! due to the band being extremely problematic
but i will keep these books up for entertainment purposes even though these books SUCK

my current stans: harry styles, melanie martinez, one direction

luv! 💓

"get up you weirdo!" sally slapped me harder and harder. "s-stop!" I begged. she laughed and ran off. I sighed and got out of bed. I made my bed and went to get ready. I picked out a Ariana grande hoodie, black leggings and black trainers. I brushed my hair and teeth and washed my face. I grabbed my phone and earphones and went downstairs.

Today was that time of the month. No, not my period. The time where a visitor would come in and pick one of us to adopt. Rumours had it it was a celebrity but I didn't believe it. I skipped breakfast and sat in the living room with my earphones in. I let House Of Gold by twenty one pilots blast into my ears. Some of the younger kids had already finished eating and were playing with their toys.

Little Jessica sidled up to me. She was 5 and her mother had her at 16. But she was coming back to get her now so that was good. "I think the drummer guy will want you Mariri" she says. "I hope" i smiled at the little girl.

"What the shit are you doing?" My earphones ripped out of my ear. I looked up to see Sally and two of her side kicks: Simone and Amanda. They all laughed at my music selections "why the fuck do you listen to twenty one pilots?" She laughed. I got up. "Give it back Sally" I rolled my eyes. "This band is fucking shit! All they talk about is dying!" "Sally please give it back" I tried taking it from her. The door opened and I didn't bother looking to see who was there. "You should just kill yourself like this stupid band tells you to" she threw my phone at me.

"THEY FUCKING SAVED MY LIFE!" I dodged past everyone and left the room. I didn't realise my music was still playing. Goner was on now. I locked my door and threw my phone down and cried. I let it all out and sobbed loudly. And then Angelis (the lady who takes care of us) knocked on my door. "The visitor wants to meet you sweetie" she says. I heard her leave. No time to cut. Ugh.

I turned my phone off and slid it into my pocket. I slipped on my STAY ALIVE wrist band and opened the door. I wiped my eyes and head downstairs to the visitors room. I opened it and walked inside and sat on a chair. "Hi. I'm josh" holy shit. I looked up and met eyes with...fuck. This is real. THIS IS FUCKING REALITY.

"h-hi" I stammered. "first of all I think you should cry instead of holding it in - it's not a good idea to bottle it up" he says. this is real. "w-will you judge me?" I whimper. "of course not!" so I did. I started to cry. and JOSH DUN HUGGED ME. HE FUCKING COMFORTED ME.

"I'm sorry about what happened before" he mumbled into my hair. I nod but cried harder. "Sorry" I mumbled. "It's okay. It's normal to cry" WOW IS THIS EVEN REAL? but anyway he sat down opposite me after I finished.

"So...tell me about you self" he says. I shrugged. "What do you wanna know?" I ask. "Anything really" he says. Hmm. "I like rain, trees, the dark, the colour black, music..." I trail off and I didn't know what else to say. "Do you have any hobbies? And if you don't are there any your interested in?" He asks me. "Well I do want to learn how to play an instrument" I say. "Which one?" He asks me. "They all seem amazing it's pretty hard to pick" I smiled. He did to.

"You seem like you have a lot going on in your head" his tone changed to a concerned one. "Maybe I do" i say. "Mariah, I think your a cool person with a good personality. And I honestly would love to have you as my child. But you need to let me help you. When I saw you in that room I immediately knew you needed someone to take care of you and be there for you. I want to be that person" he says.

Tears filled my eyes. "R-really?" I whisper. He nodded. "Just please. Let me help you" he says. I started to cry again and nodded. "Am I annoying when I cry?" I wept. "I'd rather have a kid who cries rather than one who goes round telling people they should kill themselves" he says.

He sent me to go and pack my things as he had already met every one else during breakfast. He was going to sign the adoption papers. I didn't have much so it was pretty easy and quick. Sally walked in. "I heard that drummer guy chose you" she gritted her teeth. "Yeah?" I say. "Well guess what! He will find out about your anxiety and how you cut and will send you back!" She growled.

"Well, I wish you well" I say as I zipped up my suitcase and left the room. I went to go and say bye to a few of the boys my age and the little kids. I hugged Jessica and wished her well. She gave me a lolly pop and promised me we would always be friends.

I said bye to Angelis and thanked her. She cried a bit which made me sad. "You take care of yourself sweetie!" She gave me a hug and then let me go. I stepped out of door and it closed behind me. "Ready?" Josh asks me. I nodded as he opened the trunk to put my suitcase in.

This was a new start.