adopted by josh dun | j.w.d

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I woke up screaming and bursted into tears. josh and Brendon sat on either side of me and comforted me as I sobbed my heart out. "He hurt me" was the only thing I said when they asked what what was wrong. My crying didn't stop.

it was horrible. I felt the hitting. The comments. It was all in my head though. Josh held me close as I cried and cried. My cries turned into soft sobs. Then I fell asleep in his arms.

I woke up the next morning and saw a girl. She had brown hair and brown eyes and was really pretty. "Hi. You must me Mariah. I'm Sarah. Brendon's wife" She smiled. I rubbed my eyes and yawned and said hi back. "The boys invited me over so me and you could hang. They figured you needed a girl so...here I am" she says.

"I-I have school" i stammer. "Josh insisted you were staying home. But if you want to go in then I'm fine with it. We can hang after school" she says. I nodded and got out of bed. Then I realised. I was wearing a t shirt. I quickly hid my arms behind me back. "It's okay. You don't have to hide them" she insisted. I slowly released. "I'm gonna go talk to the boys. See you in a bit" she says.

I got ready into a Victoria secret sweater, black jeans and converse. I brushed my hair and teeth and sprayed perfume on. I got my bag and went downstairs. Josh and Brendon and Sarah were in the kitchen talking. They stopped when they saw me. I was about to leave but Brendon insisted I stayed.

But after begging and pleading Josh took me to school and told me to call him if I needed anything. I tucked my new phone in my front pocket and quickly got out of the car. I immediately spotted Hayley and Megan. "Hey! What happened to you yesterday?" They ask as Josh drove away. "Puked a lot" we all laughed. "You didn't miss much. C'mon" we headed inside and saw Matt and Amy.

I smiled at him and he smiled back. Amy noticed and gave me a dark look. I looked away quickly. We walked through to our homeroom and to our first lesson.

We had History first which was okay and then English. After we had free period and went to get some snacks. I kept zoning out and getting flashbacks. I tried to shrug it off but I couldn't. I tripped and stammered but they didn't notice luckily.

"You okay?" I was now in Biology with Matt. I'd gotten a proper time table so I didn't have to follow Hayley & Megan. "Y-Yeah im fine" even though I wanted to cry. "You've been acting different all day" he says. "Im fine" I insisted.

"Would anybody like to explain what controls the cell activity inside the plant cell...Miss Dun" shit. No no. I knew the answer. The words couldn't come out. Everyone turned around. The pressure was on. "It's-" the teacher cut Matt off. "I want Miss Dun to answer"

Silence. I felt my cheeks grow pink. Tears filled my eyes. They were all looking at me. What do I say!? What if they laugh at me? What if maybe I get r wrong? Maybe the Nucleus wasn't the answer?

She rolled her eyes. "Miss Hastings" she pointed to Amy. "The Nucleus" okay I was right. Fuck. "Thank you" she looked at me. "Maybe you can learn from her!" She snapped and turned around. Matt squeezed my hand.
"So stupid" Amy laughed.

Stupid.
Stupid.

"You stupid girl! Get out!"
"Your so stupid Mariah!"
"That's a stupid thing to say!"
"How are you that stupid?"
"No one wants you! Stupid bitch!"

The yelling. The beatings. My heart started beating fast. I started breathing heavily. What's happening!? I felt dizzy. Am I going to faint? Am I going to die? What's going to happen? My chest was killing me. Am I losing my mind? Why am I so out of control? Sweet started running down my forehead.

I was out of the room. Matt and me were sitting down and I was crying and panicking. What's even happening? His voice faded. Weakness overcame me. My eyes fluttered shut as I slipped into darkness.

I awoke...in bed? I struggle to open my eyes as the door opens. "Mariah!" Josh. "W-what's happening?" I manage to croak out. "You has a panic attack. Are you okay?" He helped me sit up and gave me a bottle of water. "Y-Yeah" I lied.

No I wasn't.