adopted by josh dun | j.w.d

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Did Josh really think I was going to tell on Amy? Well, I'd never lied to Josh. Except for once. And well, this time.

I had an panic attack in the locker and Megan helped calm me down. She suffered from anxiety and knew how to handle these situations. I couldn't tell Josh about it. He didn't need this shit right now.

The day was horrific. People called me names whenever they saw me and pushed me around. I didn't know why Amy was doing this to me. And she told the whole school Matt was gay. He was getting bullied badly. It was bad enough he was scared to come out to his parents. This was even worse. We tried to be there for him but he was always gloomy. Kieran got mean comments to but he didn't care. They flicked off him. He was always there for Matt though.

She kept throwing those stupid ass papers at me and whispering mean comments behind my back with her friends. "That can't be styling gel in her hair. I bet it's KY" she whispered. I felt myself go red as her and her friends laughed. Hayley judged me. "She's a dickwad. Ignore her" I nodded. But I couldn't. I've been ignoring my whole life. I couldn't.

Her insults got worse and worse. Till I flipped. "For fucks sake you stupid ass bitch what do you want!?" It was lunch time and she was walking past our table saying horrible things. My friends were shocked at my sudden outburst.

"No one talks to me like that!" She says coldly. "I think more people should" I replied. Everyone ooed. "No one ever stands up to Amy" a girl whispered. "Your just a stupid cry baby" her words hit me hard. That's what he used to call me. "Least im not so fake that I was probably made in china" I said. My friends bursted out laughing. So did other people. Amy was shocked.

"I can beat you up, you dumbass bitch!" She replied. "Your just a fucking verbalist. You pussy ass bitch" I replied. "How is she doing this?" Matt mumbled. "Bitch, stop acting so tough" she replied. "Acting? Girl, your life is an act" I got my hair tie out and starting to tie my hair up. "Your not even funny! You ugly ass cunt!" Those words but me hard. I couldn't let her win.

I was not about to call her ugly. That's wrong. "Look if your gonna be a smart ass, first you have to be smart. Otherwise, you're just an ass" I shrugged. "Holy shit girl!" Kieran cried with laughter. I finished tying my hair up and looked at her. "Your so fat, the only letter of the alphabet you know are KFC" she spat. Everyone oohed. Tears prickled in my eyes. "Maybe if you ate the make up you wore, you'd be pretty on the inside"

I lunged at the girl and threw her to the floor. She got up and slapped me. "Is that all you got?" I asked. I grabbed her collar and shoved her against the wall. Soon it was a full blown fight. Everyone was screaming and cheering. I got her into the ground and sat on her and threw punches. Suddenly I was pulled off her and I yelled for freedom:

So...I got sent to the principles office after that. I had scratched on my face while Amy had a bleeding nose and a busted lip and I bruised face. We got into a shit ton of trouble. Especially me. And I ended up with a one week exclusion...

I wanted to cry. The thought of seeing josh angry at me made me shake. Amy was sent to the nurses office whilst I stayed and waited for Josh.

i didn't look at josh when he came in. I picked my nails and hung my head. After josh and the principle talked I was allowed to go. I silently followed Josh to the car. When we got in it started.

"This is so shocking" he says. I didn't reply. "Mariah you shouldn't have taken matters into your own hands. I told you to tell someone" he says. "You just don't get it Josh! Doing shit like that is worse than what I did today! In this day and age, being mature is a crime. No matter what happens, if you snake you have to live hell. I can't just go and tell. It fucks everything up" I exclaim. I piped down quickly. "I-I'm sorry I-I didn't mean to-" he cut me off. "Let's just get you home" he sighed.

After we got in I ran to my room and cried. I couldn't message any one, my phone was taken. I could really use a friend right now. Josh knocked on my door and said if I needed anything I should yell for him. I didn't reply. I sat in the middle of my room quietly sobbing. Then Josh knocked on the door. "Mariah? Someone called for you" He says. I wiped my eyes and opened the door. I followed Josh downstairs and he gave me the landline.

"Mariah?" It was Matt. "Hi" I say, my voice still low from crying. "Is it true? You've been excluded?" He asks. "Yeah..." I trail off. "Have you been crying?" Josh wasn't in the room anymore. I started to cry again. "I fucked up! I got in trouble for something I didn't start a-and Josh is mad at me and- it just sucks!" I cried. "Hey. I'll come over after school okay? You didn't do anything wrong. Anyone would have done what you did. I have to go but just have the knowledge of knowing I'm here for you" He says.

We ended the call and Josh came back, and put an arm round me. "I'm proud of you that your accepting your mistakes and wanting to change. But mind your language" he chuckled. I nodded, rubbing my eyes. "C'mon you've had a bad day. Let's get you some ice cream" I didn't want ice cream, despite it being my favourite food. But we did go and get some. And it made me feel a bit better. But there was a black cloud over me that changed it all.