mariah is 14 and put herself up for adoption. she's been waiting for 3 years for someone to pick her but no one has seemed to want her.
till a yellow haired drummer decides shes the one...
started: 25/12/2017
completed: 6/01/2018
i wrote this when i...
it's been a year since josh adopted me. my therapy was really helping. i've been clean for 5 months now. josh had gotten a dog called jim. he's his ESA for his anxiety. i'm terrified of dogs but jim is sweet. josh let me start a youtube channel to boost my confidence and i have 150k already which is so cool!
this is going to get really sad but...matt committed suicide. kieran saved him in time though. he was rushed to the hospital where he came out as gay to his parents. his parents supported him 100%. his parents took him out of school which sucked but we went to see him everyday and hung out with him a lot.
me and my friends started a project in school called "safe place" it's where you email one of us with a anonymous email and nickname and we reply with advice or we do live chats to help people let their worries out and get the help and support they need.
so yeah! shit is great! and that is NOT sarcasm!
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today josh had a surprise for me. i got up and ready into this:
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i brushed my hair and put on some eye liner and mascara (make up hehe). i sprayed some perfume on and then went downstairs. i heard laughter from a male and a female. i went into the kitchen and...josh and debby were kissing.
"PDA!" i screamed. they jump and jim barked. "oh mariah" josh said awkwardly. "what's going on?" i asked, wearily. "oh err" debby looked at josh. "me and debby are...uh...back together" he replied. i stood there stunned. i didn't know how to react. "are you okay with me and your dad dating?" debby asks timidly. i shrugged. "how do you feel about this?" josh asks nervously. "i actually don't know" i replied honestly. "oh"
"hey let's all go out and get taco bell for breakfast! shot gun!" i exclaimed, ruining to the car. the adults laughed. "is she usually like this?" debby smiled. "yeah. she's so precious, isn't she?" i acted like i didn't hear as i put my seat belt on. but i was glowing inside.
so yeah. i guess you could say things are going well...even when my mental disorders get in the way. but hey! i'm young and still learning. and i have josh by my side, so what do i have to fear?
"josh?" it was late and i was in a depressing mood. he was sitting on his bed, stroking jim. "come here" he knew that tone. i jumped onto the bed and we had a hug. "your such a good hugger" i mumbled. "takes one to know one" he grinned. i giggled. "i love you okay? don't forget that" he says, kissing my head. "i love you too"' then my eyes fluttered shut as i dozed off in his arms.
this book is now finish!! thank you everyone who has read it! i'm writing a brendon urie adoption fic next so wooo. bye x
