adopted by josh dun | j.w.d

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day 6 came and josh allowed me to invite my friends over. he said i deserved a break from all the stupid drama and i was forever grateful.

i got ready into this:

i brushed my hair and put it in my everyday hair style. after spraying myself with perfume, putting on fresh bandages and putting a ton of wrists bands on and my choker, i was ready.

matt and kieran came first. kieran was a huge twenty one pilots fan. josh trusted my friends and knew they would spill our secret. kieran got all shy and mumbled a hi and stood behind matt. it was adorable. josh didn't mind. he put an arm round him and said if he needed anything he could go to him. he nodded and clutched matts hand. i laughed and took the boys upstairs.

megan and hayley were next. hayley was so confident but megan? her anxiety sucked ass. "oh my god your josh dun! hi! i love you! wait no! i respect you! this is weird as your my friends dad but so what? ahh your awesome" she squealed. megan could barely whisper. josh didn't mind though. he was kind and didn't pressure them. "thank you for being such a nice person" i hugged josh and then me and my friend ran to my room.

we put some music on and played some games. hayley brought some of her make up so we did matts make up. we all did our nails and then watched netflix for a bit. then i went downstairs to get some snacks. i got a bottle of pepsi and oreos and doritos. when i came upstairs my friends were shocked and megan was crying.

"what's going on?" i asked them, putting the tray down. then i realised. my bottom drawer was open. "mariah" matt said quietly. they all turned and faced me, standing up. the room was silent. "what are these?" he opened his palms. they found my weapons. "t-they're old?" i whispered, trying not to cry.

"no mariah! don't lie!" megan cried out. she walked over to me, pulled my sleeves up and unwrapped the bandages. my dirty dirty crimes had been revealed. so me being me, i started to cry.

my friends comforted me while i sobbed my heart out. matt bursted our crying to. hayley wasn't an emotional person, but she looked really disheartened.

"does josh know?" she whispered. i didn't reply. "mariah he needs to know what's going on. amy has gone too far now" she said. "i-i can't! it's bad enough he found out about all my mental disorders! he can't about this! i-its too much stress!" i was practically bawling. josh must have heard as i heard footsteps. two pairs.

josh and abigail walked in. "what's going on?" they asked. i fell silent. "mariah you need to tell him" kieran whispers. "i-i can't!" i started to cry again. "i'll take her out of here for a bit" abigail put an arm round me and led me to the garden. we sat outside and i cried more. they were telling him.

"you don't have to tell me what's wrong. but don't stress okay? whatever it is, it can be fixed" she says calmly, holding me close. she didn't understand though. this couldn't be fixed. "mariah?" josh. fuck.

i went inside. my friends were leaving. they all looked at me sorrowfully and then left. me and josh went to the living room and sat on the couch. "i-i don't know what to say" he said, running a hand through his hair stressfully.

"mariah this is serious now. we really need to tell someone" he says. "we can't-" he cut me off. "no mariah! i'm not taking that bull crap anymore! you relapsed because of her! she's threatening to expose you unless you hurt yourself! you could die, because of this immature girl wanting to make your life hell! it's not okay! if your not going to tell anyone, then i will. i'm not letting you live in pain!" he yelled.

josh yelled at me.

i started to sob again. "i-i'm sorry i didn't mean to yell at you" he wrapped his arms round me and held me close. "i know this stuffs hard. i know how you feel. i was bullied when i was your age. but it will get better. i don't care if people find out your my daughter. i'm proud to have a beautiful daughter like you. the clique are lovely and will accept you. i promise. just please. you need to go and tell someone" he said.

but i still didn't want to. but i knew i had to.