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Chapter 10 Mistake

Toby's POV

"So," I started as I began cutting the potatoes."Tell me about you, spencer?"

She froze her eyes on the floor. She's playing with fingers trying to relieve stress. She inhaled deeply, shakily before speaking. 

"I...uhh..I-I d-don't have m-much to...to talk about." She splattered, "It's pretty boring," She continued quickly. "A-And short too." She added. 

"I love short stories." I chuckled, getting over her created excuses. "It's okay, Spence." I chuckled brushing the subject off as I realized she didn't wanna talk about it, now. But I'll definitely know about it later. We stayed quiet for a while. I'm glad she didn't ask me the same question. Because my past is no good. It was all full of dark stuff. I don't wanna remember now. Though it's always stuck on my mind because I keep blaming myself for giving myself up to them one day. But I'm sure I would never get back to them again, would I? 

Spencer's POV 

We stayed in complete silence. I heard the sound of the plates so I deduced he finished cooking and stareted preparing the table. Then, he turned back to me

"Hold on." he said before carrying me carefully to the couch. While he was feeding me, I spoke

"I-It tastes really good." I said softly, scared. I think he's a really great cook. 

"I'm glad you liked it." He stated after chuckling happily. He finished feeding me and then brought the plats to the kitchen, I think. Ever since that time we shared our food, He would always share the same plate with me. So we ate together, always. 

"C-Can I lie down, Please?" I asked.

"Yea sure." He said as he bent his right knee beside me and leaning the other on the ground. He lay me back putting a hand under my head and the other under my back. Then, I thought he was gone, I don't know why.
"W-Where are you?" I asked, Confused. "A-Are you still there?"
"Yea." He said softly as he gradually rested his body on me. I flinched in surprise and gasped as I rose my hands in defense. I was scared again.

"Don't worry, Spence." He chuckled as he brought my hands down gently. "I'm not gonna hurt you." He said softly as he began brushing my hair behind my ear with the tips of his fingers. I wanted to escape. I was moving under him.
"Can I leave, please?" I said, voiceless. I tried moving my body a bit faster but it was no use to get away from under him.
"Come here." He said as he backed away a little giving me space to sit down. He pulled me for a hug.I started crying in his arms quietly, I was relieved. He hugged me tightly stroking my back.  He brought a tissue with one hand, still hugging me with the other. Then, he wiped the tears off my face and cupped it with both of his hands.

"Your eyes are beautiful." He said. "But they become more beautiful when you don't cry." He trailed my cries softly. "They get back to their own chocolate brown color which mesmerizes me each time." He said. I looked down. I lifted her head up by her chin and kissed her passionately, cupping her face. To be honest this guy knows how to calm a girl down, perfectly. 

"Spencer you don't have to be hard on yourself. You're much better than that." He said still cupping my face. "You're anyone's wish. And I'm lucky that I met you. Spencer you're a great person you just have to get rid of all these negative thoughts from your mind. Just calm down and relax. You don't have to be all worried and scared all the time." He talked like he lived inside me the whole time. He was so right in every single word he said. I'm always anxious, afraid and worried. To be honest his words comforted me more than anything. I just feel like it was weird. I mean, he's the one who causes all of this and asks me to react non of this. To be fair he doesn't cause all of it. It's just me. I do all of it. I overthink a lot. I think I'm ugly, stupid and hopeless. I actually doubt the part that anyone would wish to meet me. Because honestly I'm not that kind of socialistic person. Plus being blind doesn't help at all. It actually decreases my confidence only. I needed someone to tell me these words but not from him. I don't know why, I just..It's really hard, diagnosing the guy. He does contrasting things and I fail to know which one of them is the true one.