HE WILL BE LOVED |FINISHED|

Six

Kianna's.

"Is it you, Chandria?" he asked. I pursed my lips. I don't know what to say. He's looking at me straight to my eyes and he's waiting for my answer. He held my cheeks. "Chandria..." 

I took a deep sighed. "Yes--I mean no--" then he rested his face again in my shoulder. Tulog na yata? What? So dito ko siya patutulugin? Mag-isa lang ako dito, pero it does not mean na magpapatulog ako ng lalake dito sa bahay. 

Just for this night. 

I carry him to the room of my big bro inihiga ko siya sa kama and he immediately hugged the pillow. I looked at him. He's very lost. He's really wasted. He's a nice guy, but I don't know why all the people around him, leaved him? Hurt him? Tao rin naman siya at nasasaktan. 

Umupo ako sa may paanan niya. Sobrang lungkot niya. Makikita ko na sobrang namamaga yung kanyang mata. 

"You deserve better, Arkinn" I said in a low voice. I was about to stand up when I heard his phone rang. I find where he putted his phone. And I found it in his pocket yung sa likod. Kinuha ko yun and tumatawag yung girlfriend niya. Akala ko ba break na sila nung babaeng yun? Ang ganda pa naman ng girlfriend niya. May picture kasi yung contact. 

Sasagutin ko ba?

I took a deep sighed and I slide to answer the call.

Hindi muna ako nagsalita. Gusto ko lang marinig yung boses niya. 

"Hello? A-Arkinn? Love?--Shit! I'm sorry. Alam ko na  wala na kong karapatan na tawagin kang love pero I really want to say sorry. Sorry if sex lang talaga yung habol ko sayo" I bit my lower lip. Tumatayo yung balahibo ko. 

Hiniwalayan niya kasi nakuha na niya yung gusto niya? And that's sex! For God's sake! 

Hindi pa rin ako nagsalita. Patuloy ko pa rin siyang pinakikinggan.

"Arkinn, I'm a knucklehead and I'm sorry. I'm whore, slut, bitch, flirt and whatever you want to call me. But believe me, I loved you. You know why I did this? Arkinn, hindi ko rin kagustuhan to. Kung papipiliin ako, mas pipiliin kita kesa dun sa pangalawa. Mas nauna ka, love. You're the first but really, I need to do this" Hindi ko napigilan na tumutulo na pala yung luha ko. Habang nagsasalita yung ex niya, nakatingin lang ako sa kanya. Sobrang bait ba nitong lalakeng to kaya sinasaktan siya? 

Pinipigilan kong marinig nung ex niya yung hikbi ko. Ayoko nun. Hindi ko alam bat ako umiiyak tuwing naririnig ko lahat ng mga sinasabi ng ex niya. 

"Arkinn, listen okay?" then I heard her cussed. "I'm sorry. I really love you, kinn. But I need to do this. I need to break up with you because that's what your father wanted me to do. He told me that he doesn't want you to be happy unless you're giving up everything for the business. Gusto niyang masaktan ka ng masaktan, Arkinn. Hindi ko alam kung tatay mo ba talaga yun o hindi" I immediately covered my mouth. I'm hurt. Really hurt. 

"Arkinn, I want you--us to be happy but for your dad's sake. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm an imbecile. I want you to be the happiest man when you already fulfill your dad's wish. I don't fucking know why your dad is like that. He's so crap. I want us to be together again when we already fix this mess. Can you promise me that?" I was about to say a word nang biglang gumalaw si Arkinn. I immediately hanged up the phone and wiped my tears. 

Baka magising siya. I put his phone in the table. 

I looked at him and he's still sleeping. God! I came near to him and I cried again. I comb his hair using my hand. "You're wonderfully made by God, but why of all people wants to hurt you? Specially your father?"